Live great!

Well, you’ve stumped me on this one. At the moment, my life is quite hum-drum; no big changes, no news, no excitement, no special announcement to jump up and down about.

But this time last year. There was a lot of change, and a lot of new things to make decisions about, a lot of hurt and anger and not knowing why these things were happening to me so in a way, I can appreciate why some people don’t like change.

Without last year, I wouldn’t have made myself get out of my miserable job, or make the most of the time I had with my husband or my family. Without last year, and its abundance or change, I wouldn’t have learnt something about myself which is that I am a better leader in a team than I am a leader on my own.

Without last year, I wouldn’t have realised I could love any child regardless of what genes we have in common.

Without last year, I wouldn’t have put myself first for a change so that I can be a healthy, happy person, strong enough to help other people and be there for those less able.

I learnt that I was afraid of change because it meant having to do it all by myself because no matter who you’re with and how close you are to people, you will always have to answer to yourself.

So, without last year, I wouldn’t have had the time now to sit here and write on this blog or think about how lucky I am that I was able to get through all those horrible changes, accept them and move on. And I don’t mind that my life is humdrum or boring and that nothing much happens. I know that if change ever happens again, I can face it now.

This is for my friend Robert Stobonovich who tragically died in February 2007 after suffering from a period of mental illness and jumping in front of a train. He always had to deal with the ever-moving states within his mind, never ever knowing the boring, the hum-drum or just silence. He was 33 years old. He was married and left 3 step-children, 2 parents and a younger brother.

That’s the thing about change. Sometimes, it’s just not fair. But then, I think about people for whom change comes in sweeping, unpredictable ways like storms and famines.

Take a look at http://www.kiva.org – empower others by giving.

Allison, you do fantastic work for charity and you are a true inspiration. Great new look to the website and I am enjoying Season 7. I feel for Chloe, I just wish, that for once, the under-dog would win. I would love to see her win Clark, she is the only girl on Smallville who deserves a hero. Please don’t let her dreams die, she is meant to be the best reporter – she’s worked so hard!

I really like your photo gallery, by the way. I’m something of a photographer myself, having just come back from Venice and then the Lake District. You can catch my pics on Facebook (just look for my name). I use a Canon 400D – which I’ve only had about a year – I’m still used to traditional film but it’s a lot cheaper using digital, so I guess I am keeping up with technological change! Thinking about that, makes me realise that sometimes, some things should stay the same, society needs a foundation of some kind that people can rely on, to help them feel safe, cared for and that they can hand down to generations lest they forget who they are and where they came from?

Take care

Hazera Forth

If you will cut out a minute, and will send to me on e-mail, though anything, there will not be a limit my happiness!!!
P.S. You are the best!