I think your problem that you’ve been addressing in this blog isn’t that of thinking what you do was special or not, it’s that what you want to do isn’t what you’re doing now.

Allison you said this:

“Spending hours upon hours improvising and writing and building characters and ideas.”

That’s not acting, that’s writing/producing.

Allison, the reason why you feel less then creative is that you finally realized the boundaries in being an actress. Being an actress only allows you to express yourself so much.

Allison, this blog post sounds to me is that you want to be a Producer. You want to form stories, characters, brainstorm all of this, do things you can’t do as an actress.

I understand with Smallville, that you don’t really have a say where your character says and does, you realizing the constraints of being an actress.

Sweetheart, you’re a producer at heart it seems. I hope you realize that and stop being so hard on yourself.

xo

Maria

Break a leg at rehearsals, enjoy Prague while you can, and I can’t wait to see the performance!

It must be great working on a fresh challange with other artists from the different spectrum of all the arts, just sounds like such a great idea!

I along with most people tend to get stuck in a rut in seemingly doing the same thing each day. However I really feel this is just a state of mind and if we look hard enough even us in the most mundane of careers can find an “individual” moment to treasure each and every day, no matter how slight, tiny or insignificant it might appear!

It must be very difficult for actors especially to play roles for a long period of time, yet even characters develop and in a fantasy show in which you appear it must be lots of fun playing “different” or at least extreame versions of characters.

Being a police officer, well somedays you witness some negative sides to human nature that can leave you feeling a bit down about people, getting home and putting on a dvd of a daft, fun and positive show like Smallville really helps to rebuild my hope in human beings..because hey life is fun and funny.

Look forward to seeing video of the rehearsals…I just wish I was in Prague to see the performance…keep having fun!

I guess you made the same mistake as I did, but you’re lucky as well for you realised it. Now you can straighten it out. I learnt early that nothing is actually granted. Ever since I can remember I’ve been able to empathise with my opposites. So I can put myself completely in somebody else’s position – as if I would be this other person myself. I can feel and even think the way the people, I put myself in, do. It’s always been the easiest thing for me to do. Some of my friends say that I was a born actress with this ability. However, there are two reasons why I didn’t chose this occupation. 1. I don’t like cameras. Hence, I don’t like it to be filmed or photographed. 2. I’m not that type of person who needs an audience. Yet I’ve got quite a good knowledge of human nature thereby. One day I made a big mistake. I started to take this ability for granted. Even though I knew that actually nothing is granted in life – except death. I regret this mistake bitterly because for the first time in my life my ability abandoned me. Unfortunately it took me a long time until I got it. So I finally had to relearn to trust my instincts and how to use my ability properly again.

Be this as it may, I think you are a special creature, Allison. Besides, to be special does not mean to be perfect or flawless. Remember, you are only human, too. Our abilities need respect. So treat your ability with respect, keep in mind that it is not granted and be thankful for every time your ability allows you to do your job the best as you can. I’m sure you’ll acquit yourself well and the play’s gonna be fantastic.

take care,
Silvia