So I am preparing for the next film I am working on and I am so re-inspired about creating after my experience in Prague. It is amusing to me that 75% of my job entails memorization and I am constantly forgetting things that are super important in my life… like, why I do what I do, what I am going for, what are the elements in place when I am feeling the most progressive and successful.
But I suppose this is sort of the process of humanity. We evolve and grow and forget where we started, and then evolve and grow and forget. Then you hit the low points to remind you there is more to go, further to push.

So I suppose there is always a silver lining, and every time you start to feel like shit, just remind yourself of the lesson you learned last time. Pull of the “scene” of your life and push harder.

I love how it sounds like I am speaking as though I am an expert on this topic. I am really just coaching myself through this process. I’ll keep you all posted on the movie journey!
xo
a

Add yours Comments – 37

  • Eliezer

    on June 3, 2009 at 6:15 am

    Memorizing is one skill/trait that I wish I had so I don’t have write it down and/or tell a friend for not letting me forget this. Anyway, wish nothing but success with the film.

  • Andrew

    on June 3, 2009 at 6:27 am

    Some of the most beautiful moments I’ve experienced were that beautiful because they reminded me of important things I’d forgotten. The journey that is life can be complicated that way. It’s interesting how what can be considered bad one moment is good the next.

    ~Andy

  • David Hayes

    on June 3, 2009 at 6:44 am

    It is very typical that what you excel at when at work is what you are worst at when at home. When I spend hours fixing rental properties, I can not find it in me to make the simplest repairs at home. When I have to organize volumes of data into concise reports at work, I find it impossible to come home and organize my receipts and records. Maybe that’s why it has become so important for you to find your true self outside of work … because at work, you are someone else.

  • nkc

    on June 3, 2009 at 6:50 am

    As horrible as bad experiences can be its good to know that something good can come out of them.It sucks that it takes those times for us to remember where we started.I thats partly because we are constantly trying to move forward in life,trying to “put the past behind us”.At least we have times of refelection when we can sit back and remember where it all started!

    Cant wait to hear about the new movie!
    nicole 🙂

  • Irene

    on June 3, 2009 at 7:00 am

    Last night it stormed so bad that it shook the house. There was threats of lighting, thunder, and sounds of rushing winds.

    But in the morning light shined, the birds churped, and all was nothing of what I heard. The house was in tact, no damage was done. All was well again.

    Isn’t that just like life? We fear what seems the darkness brings. But in reality, the light shines threw the darkness of what we can not see and shows us that there is nothing fear.

  • jimmy Valentime

    on June 3, 2009 at 7:12 am

    Hey,

    How is the kitten doing?

    is it a tv movie or a film ?

    I hope you have fun on the project …

    i think its important to remember what happen to us and where we where before ..helps from falling in to bad habits and repeating old mistakes …

  • Kris

    on June 3, 2009 at 7:20 am

    I completely agree that there is always a silver lining, and I’ve had to find many in dealing with adjusting to becoming deaf last year. It’s very funny to me that a lot of people either forget or never realize that you are who you decide to be. We’re all actors living through our lives and trying out for different roles hoping to someday “pull off the scene of our life” and win the starring role in our own show.

  • Jen

    on June 3, 2009 at 7:29 am

    Sometimes when I read your blog, I feel like some voyeur took a page out of my journal and ransacked it on display 😉

    On that note, I completely relate with the need to talk to one self through moments in life. Whether their good, bad, or just shades of grey in between the highs and lows of life.

    I call it my personal schizo self-help comfort guide book.

    Half the time I know I’m talking out of my ass, but it helps. It’s a never ending journey. Your never gonna have the answers or why we choose to fall back on techniques to help carry us through. We just…do. And then we move on and then come back, and then move on, come back etc.,

    We ride on an adrenaline high, our daily routines, out of nowhere, or really, during a random quiet day when we have time to breathe and think to ourselves, we freak out, we hit the bottom (or what we think the bottom is at that given moment), cue our inner shrink, talk ourselves into a prognosis, in our minds a moment of brief clarity, before it all comes down crashing around us. And we repeat the cycle.

    Sometimes we all need a good healthy dose of reality, doubt, and fear to hit us over the head to remind us that we are breathing and living beings.

    If I can be honest, I like to believe I never feel more alive than when I am immersed in those fleeting moments of self-doubt that I truly “get it”.

    What the hell do I know, but I think that’s the point.

    If that makes any freaking sense…blame it on the lack of coffee this morning 🙂

  • jennygirl

    on June 3, 2009 at 7:33 am

    Glad you sound like you feel a little better. Can you tell us more about the movie? We understand if it’s something you have to keep under wraps for a bit.

  • Melanie

    on June 3, 2009 at 7:42 am

    A new movie? Yay! It’s exciting!

    I have to say though, I am also wondering how is your kitten doing… I hope when you have time you’ll keep us posted. Take care!

  • jesse

    on June 3, 2009 at 8:01 am

    Hi Allison

    I am glad you had a great time in Prague, don’t feel like crap, remember you can always blame it on Jesse, hhaaa, always umm
    Having a bit of computer problems, getting it fixed, it would be difficult for me to write for a few days, but I will try.

    -Jesse

  • Silvia

    on June 3, 2009 at 8:07 am

    Hi Allison,

    I absolutely concur with you. Whatsoever, I think we forget things because our brain needs space for new things. So old things that don’t seem to be important anymore, disappear over the years. Next of bringing back things to our minds, it can also be quite helpful to see how others do some things. Last Friday I learnt during a phone call that I would have an ineluctable argument on Tuesday (yesterday). I’m a fighter, but not in the sense of loving conflicts with others. I had no clue how I should solve this problem, but then I saw how two ravens protected their nest against a huge bird of prey and there was the solution which led me to my verbal victory yesterday. We can learn from animals as good as we can learn from ourselves and other humans. So I’ll try not to forget this lesson.

    Quote: “I am constantly forgetting things that are super important in my life… like, why I do what I do, what I am going for, what are the elements in place when I am feeling the most progressive and successful.“

    – I’ve learnt that things we not only save in mind but also in heart are less often forgotten than those things we only try to keep in memory. You can also write them down or put them into art. This way those things will survive.

    I hope you’ll have as much fun with your next film as you had in Prague.

    take care,
    Silvia

  • Beth

    on June 3, 2009 at 8:51 am

    They say that what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger and you have to take the good with the bad because if nothing bad ever happens to you life starts to get boring and the good stuff stops being special.
    It took me a long time to actually understand and learn what that really means.
    I couldn’t agree with you more Allison. It’s like learning to ride a bike; if you fall you’ve just gotta get back up on your feet and jump back onto the bike and just keep learning.
    I also agree with what David Hayes said about being two different people. No one I know of is the same both at work and at home. Possibly because these are two different environments where you’re surrounded by different types of people and influenced by them in different ways. I’m definitely not the same person at home as oppose to when I’m at school or out with friends. Different parts of my personality emerge when I’m with different people.

    I am so glad to hear that you are re-inspired by Prague. You seemed to really enjoy yourself in the blogs.
    I loved that!
    Can’t wait to hear more about your next project.

    xoxo
    Beth

  • Avitable

    on June 3, 2009 at 9:33 am

    Looking forward to reading about it.

  • Smallvillekent

    on June 3, 2009 at 9:45 am

    Allison, Things will get better. I always wonder how actors memorize all those lines for a movie or a tv show. I guess after a while it becomes second nature. I hope Bosely is doing better. Looking foward to this new movie. Create, create.

  • Smallvillekent

    on June 3, 2009 at 9:52 am

    We are all different people at work and at home. I agree With Beth and David. Sometimes work can seem easy like all that memorization witch is actually hard. While the easier stuff at home or why we do stuff we mess up. All the best. Peter

  • Susana

    on June 3, 2009 at 10:02 am

    Thats awesome Allison! I am so glad to hear your working on your new movie, can’t wait to hear how it’s coming along & I can’t wait to see it too :).

    I love that you are doing all this it seems like such fun yet your learning alot from it too which is always great. You seem like your keeping yourself real busy, which is important but see I like that you are doing that yet your also getting something from it. I have the worst memory EVER!!!!! Literally where I can’t even remember numbers or birthdays :(, so I could never be an actress lol, but it’s awesome to hear i’m not alone, but yet you pull it off amazingly Allison I like that about you 🙂

    Keep up the hard work it always pays off, like for instance I graduated in February (yes I know it’s early but I got in all my credits so I got to finish earlier than everyone else :)) haha & before I graduated when I was a sophmore I used to think I was never going to graduate because I didn’t feel smart enough or I just didn’t know if I could, then I started thinking positive & finishing my work fast & learning & doing everything as it came & now here I am in my junior year of High School & I graduated Early! A year early!!! Which to me was amazing & I couldn’t believe it was me the same girl that said I couldn’t do it just a year earlier! & now here I am going to walk in my graduation ceremony on Thursday! I don’t know I just feel like if you put your mind to anything you can do it, whether it be easy or hard or just something you really really think you can’t!

    Haha gosh I hate that I ramble, sorry i’ll try & keep my comments shorter 😛

    Take Care,

    P.S. I am still praying for your kitty 🙂 keep us posted on how he’s doing

    Susana

  • Ornella Santilli from Argentina

    on June 3, 2009 at 10:41 am

    Dear Allison:
    I’m really happy for you! I wish you the best in this new project and hope Bosley is getting better!

    I send you a lot of positive energy from Mendoza!

    Best wishes.

  • Smallvillekent

    on June 3, 2009 at 11:00 am

    Hey All, I was just on the Kryptonsite and the 8th season of Smallville DVD is coming out on August 26th. There is a commentary on there in the director chair and behind the scenes by our own Allison. Looking foward to that.

  • Lydia

    on June 3, 2009 at 11:11 am

    You are right, there is always a silver lining.

    I’ve been struggling with my body image and I really hit a low point. I feel better now. I know that my negative self-image isn’t completely gone and that I have a long way to go but, I’ve learned lessons and I continue my journey with a smiling heart.

    I think that life is beautiful and I just don’t want to give up when it gets tough. I feel blessed and I want to live my best life, make a difference and, be a good person.

    How is your kitty?

    I’m looking forward to your blogs about your new movie.

  • Smallvillekent

    on June 3, 2009 at 11:12 am

    Sorry thats August 25th commentary in the director’s chair behind the scenes calling the shots with Allison Mack on the Smallville DVD.

  • Robin

    on June 3, 2009 at 11:53 am

    I guess all our lives all full of valleys and mountains as we continue through lifes journey.

    Try and bear in mind the following;

    Cherish memories of yesterday – each and everyone of them makes us who we are.

    Live in the moment, every second is unique and will never return.

    Dream of tomorrow, imagine what could be and to the new exciting adventures around the corner…

    Wishing you the very best of luck with the latest film project and in creating this latest character!
    I know you’ll rise to the challange, keep well and have fun!

  • Aziza

    on June 3, 2009 at 12:40 pm

    good luck in your new movie.
    An excellent memory comes with consistent practice and dedication of course and you are blessed with that. ;). I remember writing a play for an exam- to act with another student and I remembered her lines as well as mine- which was cool. I wish that dedication came back to me.

    Ok new rule in life- positive consistency!

    What goes up may slip a little and that is the ‘proces of humanity’. You are so right. Life has stages. Things are above us so we would aspire, things are below us so we can uplift them. We slip to understand the fallen and in this time instead of self pity we assess the situation and mend the broken. And that is what I like about your posts- you don’t dwell on anything superficial at all- it’s the subconscious, deepest thoughts, pits of the heart, the advanced part of the brain resonating throughout in order to benefit yourself through self-examination as well as benefitting others.

    Have a great week!

  • Eduardo

    on June 3, 2009 at 1:18 pm

    realy from the bottom of my crepy soul good luck with your new movie i hope i see you in the big screen soon xoxo

  • Ruthie

    on June 3, 2009 at 1:55 pm

    I love it…coaching yourself through the process. Isn’t that how it goes? How many times have I talked myself through a quagmire or listened intently to a friend work through a problem and laughing at my lack of advice and their lack of need for it. It’s usually there inside. I read a quote from Audrey Hepburn in Breakfast at Tiffany’s yesterday that made me smile, “I guess this is kind of a ratty question, but what have you written lately?” I can’t tell you how often the answers come as I write, how writing teaches me. I always enjoy reading your process here too. What a beautiful journey…

  • Tucker

    on June 3, 2009 at 2:29 pm

    I’m often reminded how life has a way to tear us down in order to move on and build anew in the continuing journey.

    We have a tendency to become so focused on the events of the day – which can be wonderful at times to do to remind us just what we enjoy and love about life – that we’ll often forget the things that have occurred to bring us to that point.

    Lessons tend to be pushed to the smaller drawers of our minds until they are forcefully brought back to the forefront. But they are forcefully brought back in an effort to make better choices and move on to the next step, often just at the precise point that they need to be.

    It’s not always fun – in fact, more often than not it’s downright horrible – but I can look back at those moments when I despaired and see just how much further I’ve gotten as a person as a result.

    I’m in a down patch right now and I know that this is exactly the challenge I need to get me the next step in my journey. I’d been stagnating for so long and I needed to be torn back down to basics to move on. It’s not fun and I’m constantly frustrated at the moment but I see the silver lining, as you mention.

  • Brittany

    on June 3, 2009 at 2:35 pm

    Hey Allison! I can’t wait to hear more about your creating journey! I agree with Smallvillekent, I can’t wait to view the behind the scenes calling the shots with Allison Mack!

    Much love & support,
    BrittanyXOXOXO

  • Kathy

    on June 3, 2009 at 3:15 pm

    Good for you for staying positive and good luck with the movie!

  • Amanda N.

    on June 3, 2009 at 3:40 pm

    I love how you always seem to see the positive aspect of every situation.Throughout my life I have had teachers who constantly tell me there is a silver lining, that you should continue to look for the bright side cause that will push you to go on.Optimism reveals a person who loves life,pessimism only shows how one doesn’t wish to move forward in their journey.It is wonderful you are starting a new film.I am extremely excited about the details and synopis of it,so I am glad you will keep us updated.Though in the midst of all this wonderful projects you have been taking on I hope you are getting some rest.Today was my first day off and done with school.I totally slept in late.I hope you do awesome with your new film.I also hope you enjoy your time with playing a new character.As a huge movie fan I always enjoy seeing actors portray different characters.And I remember you saying that this one was going to be darker.All I can say is YAY!!!Dark characters are the best ones to watch,and I imagine to play as well.So I’m sure you’ll have a lot of fun with this role.

    Another thing I think is amazing is how actors memorize all their lines.That is something I don’t think I could ever do.I’m sure you don’t ever forget the important things in your life for long.Cause when you talk on your blog to us you always seem to mention the significant things you hold dear whether it is in the artistic side of you or just the human part in general.

    I’m glad you had an amazing time in prague.I’m sure your glad to be home though.Oh and I hope your kitty Bosley is doing better.Have a great day Allison.

  • Eugenie

    on June 3, 2009 at 5:30 pm

    Im the same, i can be very “wise” but apply diddly squat of what im wise about.

  • BOUROUX

    on June 3, 2009 at 7:24 pm

    Hi Allison.
    Memorization of texts is important and takes time, but the interpretation requires talent and creativity.
    The writers create a character but the one who gives life is the actor. The actor must feel deep within himself the soul of the character. He must leave his body to enter in another body.
    The actor has come to no longer recognize himself and accept his new image. He had the incredible opportunity to live the life of someone else, a foreigner.
    Chloe’s success is directly attributable to your interpretation. Anyone can learn the text but it’s the verbal and physical interpretation that makes the difference.
    The emotional preparation of your new character should be something new as fascinating and terrifying.
    I look forward to learning more about this film and your character.
    Why we forget the important things in our lives?
    This is not a memory problem, but our feelings take control of our lives.
    If we learn from our mistakes and those of other our lives would be perfect for the things we control.
    The expression “living his life” makes sense.
    Our life experience allows us to better know us and know our limits. Our limits should not be a brake to our creativity, but a guide that we will allow us to be more productive.
    Life is like shooting a film, can be repeated again and again while this is not completely finished.
    Allison you are an expert and thanks to share with us.
    I can’t wait to view the behind the scenes calling the shots with Allison Mack!
    Good night.

    Claude.

  • william

    on June 3, 2009 at 10:40 pm

    Thanks allison, and do keep us posted!

  • Jade Ruby

    on June 3, 2009 at 11:54 pm

    David Hayes Says:
    “I find it impossible to come home and organize my receipts. . . because at work, you are someone else.”

    Routine gets fixed in the mind. If you take the time to remember to check out your thought patterns in different places that you frequent, you’ll see that your mind just naturally falls into these separate thinking sequences. Of course attempting to break through thought sclerosis takes practice.

  • Caroline

    on June 4, 2009 at 11:21 am

    This is my first time on this website. I am in the process of co-writing, co-producing, co-directing, and possibly acting in an independent film and I was watching an episode of Smallville and said to my boyfriend, “It’s too bad we aren’t friends with Alison Mack she would be perfect for Janine (one of the roles we are trying to cast).” So I started looking at some of your stuff, trying to figure out what qualities you possessed (other than being an incredibly honest and talented actress) that I could compare to actresses in my area to help figure out who might be able to play the role. In my search I stumbled upon this blog.

    It is so interesting how universal the human experience is I think that is something we always try to encapsulate with art. The feeling of forgetting why you are doing something or how you got there is always such a horrible lost feeling, but the experience of remembering and figuring it all out again is usually nothing short of an amazing gift. It’s strange how being lost can be such a foundation for creativity, though I suppose that is true of any situation that leads us to learn.

  • Joy

    on June 6, 2009 at 5:49 pm

    I don’t beleive we ever forget.

    JOY

  • eddiewulf

    on June 11, 2009 at 5:25 pm

    realy from the bottom of my crepy soul good luck with your new movie i hope i see you in the big screen soon xoxo

    eduardo

  • Emily

    on April 21, 2011 at 1:46 am

    So, I was stumbling the other day and came across a site that had a list of words that don’t exist in the English language. One word stuck out above the rest.

    Meraki (Greek): doing something with soul, creativity, or love.

    If you ask me that’s a way to live life on a daily basis. Thought you would like it 🙂