Today was a day that revealed such an amazing and common struggle I seem to experience often in my life. An experience of direction, clarity and purpose. We started off our day with a bang. The experience we ended the evening with last night was one of great triumph. We found or story and played through the concept with enthusiasm and vigour. But, when we went to quantify, specify, and clean, we were lost. We found the common vision we thought we all shared was not a common vision at all, but a big jumble of miscommunication.
It’s amazing this whole working on a team dynamic. The idea of making something with others takes communication, conversation, sharing and listening. These are all ideas we think we naturally have, like we are born with all these capabilities. But alas, not so. And not only are we not natural listeners or communicators, but we each learn in a different way, so even when we think we are talking, there is no way we are actually doing so. And boy did we ever figure this out today. So the evening culminated with 3 days til the show goes up and no show. So what did we do when we felt stuck?
What everyone always does when they feel stuck. We made dinner. We made dinner, ate, enjoyed each other, and came back to the creative table with fresh ideas and inspiration.
Our phenomenally fearless leader, Jenny, created an exercise, one intended to get us all on the same page– solidified as it were. We each began by writing about the intention of the piece for two minutes. Then thirty words. Then five. Then one. We then went in a circle, shared each of our ideas, then picked one.
From this one, we had a diving board. From this one we found direction. So we go to bed with some glimmer of hope that the show will make some semblance of sense and we will be able to do what we came here to do: tell a story that moves people, inspires people to think and feel– to seek to know more and push harder.
Ah the growing pains of creating. This shit ain’t easy, but it sure is fun. I say good night to the church bells of Old Prague.