It was an extra ordinary day today here in the most beautiful city of Prague. The sun was shining and the sky was clear. I spent my day wandering the streets and pondering my life’s direction and brainstorming creative ideas. I often find that I overwhelm myself with all the ideas of the things I want to accomplish and what I have involved myself in.

I want to make things. I want to act and create plays and movies that push boundaries and expand perception. I want to use the arts to challenge the way people think about themselves and the world.
I want to strengthen people’s understanding of themselves and push people to ask questions and think. Think hard. Which is funny considering thinking hard is one of the things I feel the least skilled at doing.

I find myself sitting for too long and I begin to panic. I have had to remind myself here in Prague to just chill and relax and enjoy the time as it passes slowly. The only reason it feels so sped up is because I am running. I feel like I am running to catch up to my own ideas, but I have not taken the time to think about the ideas.

Again, with the lack of thinking. I suppose I should working on my own capacity to do the thing I want to help others do before I can be potent enough to actually help.

Ok. Enough with the rants. Check out this youtube video to tide you over til the next video blog comes up!

xo
a

Add yours Comments – 34

  • jesse

    on May 26, 2009 at 1:09 pm

    Hi Allison

    I hope you can continue to enjoy Prague and at the same time generate ideas for your project. I hope everything is well there. Umm

    -jesse

  • David Hayes

    on May 26, 2009 at 1:12 pm

    Sometimes the potency you need to help the way you want to help develops during the process of helping. One of my favorite movies is “A New Leaf” where a weak nothing of a man becomes a strong, motivated person through helping someone even less capable (but with a more loving heart than his) … even though his purpose is not noble and his goal is to continue to be the same useless person he once was.

    To be honest, the highest priority thing that I seek to accomplish is to make sure that somehow, when I leave this world, I don’t leave a mess or end my days as a burden to anyone. I might not think this is my priority but actions speak louder than conscious words sometimes and I work hardest at being helpful and responsible — keeping my Karma tally on the plus side.

    In my head though, I would like to get my movie made. For the first 30 years of my life I invented things that either already existed without knowing they existed or invented things that were ignored until someone else marketed them. To clarify something I just said, inventing something that already exists is looked at by many people as being stupid. But if the person who invented something first is considered smart, clever and/or innovative, then why is someone who independently but later came up with the same thing without any knowledge of the invention existing be considered any less smart, clever and/or innovative? Anyway, I finally got the knack of being first and have probably been awarded a couple dozen patents now … I lost count and they don’t matter because they are all pretty stupid, insignificant things … and patents are used as weapons these days to keep competitors from using good and logical approaches to solving problems. Good ideas are mean to be used and not hoarded (“It’s MINE and you CAN’T have it! It’s a totally anti-evolutionary process and I participate in it).

    So, as an idea person with an excellent track record of knowing what will work and won’t work, I have an idea for a movie that will someday be made when someone who has contacts who believe in him or her comes up with the idea. It is bound to happen. Selfishly, I want to be the one that gets the idea out there first. I think that would give me something to be proud of. It would be something that I could tell people that I created and have them not believe me because I am too ordinary a person to come up with something extra-ordinary … and that is a back handed complement. Maybe it’s not meant to be, but I still hope. All it takes is the right word in the right ear at the right time.

  • Susana

    on May 26, 2009 at 1:24 pm

    Well I think what you are doing is amazing Allison keep up the great work. & yeah I agree I am the same I can’t just sit & think because I start going crazy, I hate really listening too much to my head because I end up doing stupid things haha. But enough said I can’t wait till your next blog video & I can’t wait to hear how its going.

    P.S. That little video was sooo cute & sad lol.

    Take Care,

    Susana

  • David Hayes

    on May 26, 2009 at 1:36 pm

    About wanting many things.

    My wife often spends hours telling me what she wants done that day. Invariably, the description of the work is so overwhelming that we are both exhausted after she has finished describing all she wants … then we both go and take a nap and nothing at all gets done. Maybe this is an example of the “active laziness” you described.

    Also, there is a certain way that people bid for immortality. They say “I can’t die until I pay off my debts” and express their desire to live forever by piling up more debt than they could ever repay. Likewise, some people make lists of all the things they want to do in their life … and plan far more than they could possibly do (again as an expression of wanting to live forever). But often, planning too big leads to getting nothing accomplished.

    In some ways, your adventure in Prague seems to be a way of forcing yourself to get done things you wanted to do. Instead of writing a play and not casting it or getting a theater until the play was scripted and scored, you (as a group) made commitments to put on a play that didn’t exist — commitments so deep that you would feel mortified if you weren’t able to achieve everything you promised yourself and each other. You created a pressure cooker to jump into in order to force yourself to produce something that you may have felt would never happen otherwise. This is just speculation on my part.

    Now to get to what I meant to say in this post. I noticed something when I made a list of what I wanted or needed. If I sent an e-mail listing 3 pieces of information I needed, I would get a reply with only one thing from the list and the feeling that the person who I had asked felt that they had given me everything I asked for. The feeling usually proved correct and the one thing in three that I got was the least of what I needed. It’s like going into a restaurant and ordering a steak, baked potatoe, salad and “… oh yeah, bring me some A1 sauce” … and getting ONLY the A1 sauce. This kind of thing happened to me so regularly that I decided to think hard and decide what I really want or need the most before I ask forsomething and only ask for ONE thing at a time. If I get ignored, I get ignored … but I don’t get the A1 sauce without anything to put it on. I even take this same approach to prayer. I have decided what I want most that only God can grant me and that is the only thing I ever ask for me from Him. I ask for many things for others, but for myself, I limit myself to one. Has this approach worked for me? Not really. But it is a lot less frustrating than getting the least item that I ask for.

  • Amanda N.

    on May 26, 2009 at 1:38 pm

    I think you are quite amazing that you want to do so much with your ideas and talent.I can understand how it has become overwhelming for you.It sounds as if you spend the better half of your days trying to make all these things you want happen right now.It’s perfectly okay if don’t make all of this happen all at once.Life is a journey and what we do and wish to do always takes time.And I think it’s incredibly beautiful how much you truly want to do in this world.It is very much one of the reasons I admire you so much.But you have plenty of time to make all your dreams come true.For now I think you should settle down and relax.You know maybe put your feet up and enjoy all that Prague has to offer.You deserve a break and a vacation from all the hard work you have put out.Have an awesome time with the remaining shows you guys have,and also enjoy your time in Prague doing the things you want.We won’t curse you if you be a litle lazy over there!

    That video was just magical.The animation was really nice and creative.But more than anything I loved the speaker’s voices and accents.They sounded so thoughful and calm when they talked of their first crushes.

    This makes me think of my first crush,and how beautiful and wonderful I found him to be.Thanks so much for sharing that ultra cool video.How do you always find the greatest things to post?

  • David Hayes

    on May 26, 2009 at 1:43 pm

    Oh, one thing I asked for and got that I never expected. I left one topic with some of my writing on it on the forum. I decided I wouldn’t post any more of my fictions on the forum unless I got at least 400 views on that topic. I now have over 2500 views on that topic and over 2500 additional views total on all the fiction topics I created since I returned to the forum.

  • Lydia

    on May 26, 2009 at 1:55 pm

    I think you’re really good at ‘thinking’:-)

    It’s amazing all the things that you already do and all the things you want to do. I can’t wait to see more of you in TV shows, movies, theatre, music,…

    Just follow your heart and passion(s). You’re a tremendously talented artist and a wonderful woman who really makes a difference. You’re a true inspiration by simply being ‘you’.

  • Avitable

    on May 26, 2009 at 2:11 pm

    I look forward to seeing what you do create. I’m sure it will be excellent.

  • Vanessa (spain)

    on May 26, 2009 at 3:45 pm

    I´ve got the same problem… Too many ideas and too chaotic… Just now I´m trying to make sense of it all.

    About helping others, for the way you sound you can get easily excited, and I think maybe you just need to be patient. And we always want to see in others what we can´t/would like to see in ourselves… If you want to see others thinking, relax and think! If you want to see others happy, be happy! 😛

  • Maria

    on May 26, 2009 at 4:11 pm

    I find it admiring what you want to do with your talent and how I wished that other people , actors and actresses like you, would think the same way and have the same goal as you. You see acting as a way to change the world and I find it admiring!

    LOVED the video! BTW it was awesomely animated and it’s such an awesome way of storytelling!

  • Brittany

    on May 26, 2009 at 4:52 pm

    Hey Allison, I can’t sit down and think real hard for a long time or I go insane! I’m always on the go, I always have to move or just do something. But thinking real hard…not my forte! That little video was so cute! I was sad when the tiger went out with her best friend.. ouch! I wonder if these are based on real stories? Hmmm….. I wish you a wonderful time in Prague and hopefully you shall sort out you’re ideas and thoughts before getting back into the race.
    Much love & support,
    BrittanyXOXOXOXOXO

  • Amber

    on May 26, 2009 at 5:12 pm

    Allison, you want to be a Producer, I think that job would suit you very well.

    Maybe you should try to branch out of the restrictions being an actor gives you.

    Test yourself, challenge yourself.

    You want to be creative, then allow you to do something other then acting, and while your Smallville Schedule may be in the way of that, perhaps you could do a compromise.

    You’ve directed an episode of Smallville, why not ask the Producers if you could write an episode to express your creativity and push the characters to new lengths in your mind. It would be the perfect starting point in finding out which direction you should take in life.

  • william

    on May 26, 2009 at 7:52 pm

    Allison, I cant wait to see what you do in the future, and what you will create and give to the world! That video alot of school kids would call childesh or silly but thats just being inmature. That video was very ture, one couple got married, one the guy loved her for years but nothing happened, one got her heart broke, and the other just didnt work, great vid. very interesting. btw I always love to hear your rants!
    thanks, have fun!
    william

  • Irene

    on May 26, 2009 at 8:53 pm

    You know, there is a time and a season for every purpose under heaven…

    I use to get overwhelmed allot too. You have so many REAL dreams, plans, desires, all led by strong conviciton of something you feel you must complete in your life time. Some how they each feel so strong/ fresh, that you don’t know what to do first, or next, or so on and so forth…

    I just learned that somethings you will accomplish threw those that you pour yourself into, & others you will fulfill in certain time frames of your life.

    It’s almost like you learn to read the seasons of your life that your in. which one of those things in your heart will fall into place, or which one you will just fall into/ walk into. It will just happen!

    In the mean time, it’s cool to be aware of yourself and think about the future, but don’t get all caught up in the future that you miss out on the present! [zoom out]

    Live, Laugh, Love!

    Go aborb/ replenish!

  • Eduardo

    on May 26, 2009 at 10:14 pm

    aww thats a realy nice video i like the shark is kind of cute, and alison just calm down and enjoy what you are living now and enjoy every one who is near you.
    ^-^ just be happy

    Eddie wulf

  • BOUROUX

    on May 26, 2009 at 10:46 pm

    Hi Allison.
    I received the DVD of the film YOU today.
    A beautiful love story.
    Allison , you are amazing with your wonderful smile.
    A film to see and review.
    The relation father daughter is very charming and realistic.
    Allison, since you write on your blog, you think more than before and you ask many questions about the meaning of life.
    Interpret an inspirational character who gives hope will give you great satisfaction. I can not wait to see you in your new film where your character will rediscover the light.
    Our quality of life through a better balance between speed and slowness.
    And if a good use of the slowness could make our lives richer and more productive?
    Have a good day.
    Bye
    Claude.

  • Beth

    on May 26, 2009 at 10:59 pm

    Oh my god. That was such a cute video.
    Keep enjoying beautiful Prague!

    xoxo
    Beth

  • Robin

    on May 27, 2009 at 12:14 am

    Old Prague is an amazing place, just the thing for contemplation and inspiration.

    Just relax, take a deep breath and enjoy the moment, thinking up wild and crazy ideas for future projects should be the most FUN part of any project…what if we did this, how about if this could happen, imagine trying this…

    I’m so glad to read you are enjoying your time and are bursting with so much creative energy.

    Maybe art is our distorted mirror on life? It can be silly and serious, question, comfort, make us laugh, make us cry, thrill us, frighten us, challange and staedy our own journey…

    Us audience members are the lucky ones , we get to just sit down and enjoy the show!

    Good luck and keep having fun Allison.

  • Jade Ruby

    on May 27, 2009 at 3:42 am

    Vanessa (spain) Says:
    “. . . relax and think!”

    Aye there’s the rub! To relax and think is a constant battle for me; both mentally and yes–physically. My own body resists my efforts to relax and think, let alone trying to stop those wheels from spinning in my mind.

    So, I will continue to attempt to put pen to page, and finger to keyboard.
    And thank goodness for the refreshing candor of Allison Mack.

  • Silvia

    on May 27, 2009 at 7:25 am

    Hi Allison,

    I guess this is the tragedy of our epoch. We rush through our life thinking and wanting, but forget to take some time. The consequence is that we finally lose or miss a lot of things while living such a fast life. To take the time gives you much more than just the chance to think about some creative ideas… it gives you a fuller life.

    take care,
    Silvia

  • Silvia

    on May 27, 2009 at 7:26 am

    PS

    nice video 😀

  • Ted

    on May 27, 2009 at 7:27 am

    Hahahahhahhahahaha you are soo funny allison! I read all time your journal. It is interest and funny and smart. hehehe it is amazing to push help me think anyting possible and get my goal. I hope you have good time in prague. Do you have boyfriend or husband?

  • Melissa

    on May 27, 2009 at 7:37 am

    Hi Allison
    You know I really enjoy watching you on Smallville, you’re always so intriguing to watch. Did not know you were big into theatre too, and were part of a company while the show wasn’t shooting. That makes you super cool in my books. Theatre nerds unite!…lol. Hope to perform with you one day =)

  • lena

    on May 27, 2009 at 9:14 am

    Hi Allison
    Just relax and soak up the moment.
    sweet video, it reminded me of Ardman animation ‘Creature Comforts’. Good luck with the show and enjoy the rest of your time in Prague!

  • charm

    on May 27, 2009 at 9:49 am

    allison, i really like you as an actress. You are so awesome and talented..

    and I’m really trying to relate to your blog and thoughts but i notice that you are way too serious about life and you think too much..i just wish you enjoy life in your own terms and values and God’s guidance and i wish you don’t put meaning into everything…Life is simple and yet beautiful..

  • Ornella Santilli

    on May 27, 2009 at 10:39 am

    How do you do, Alli?

    I wish you the best!!! I hope you can find concentration to think about and generate new ideas!!!!!

    Enjoy Prague!!!!

    A huge hug!!!!!

    Your Argentinian fan, Ornella.

  • Vanessa (spain)

    on May 27, 2009 at 10:51 am

    Hey everyone, speaking about ideas… Have you seen this?
    youtube.com/dosomething1

    I just found out and it´s amazing what they do! I had never heard about that website (dosomething.org), I think it´s very inspiring to see other´s people ideas and projects. And it can also be good when you´ve run out of ideas or motivation.

  • Aziza

    on May 27, 2009 at 2:09 pm

    enjoy your time in Prague Allison.

    Relax, soak up the moment like rays of sunlight.

  • Alanah

    on May 27, 2009 at 4:41 pm

    That video was SO cute!!!! i <3’d it!! I can’t wait til Smallville next season. I love watching you i think you’re the funniest character ^^

    -Alanah

  • Kathy

    on May 27, 2009 at 5:32 pm

    Right now, just enjoy your time in Prague. Then, when you are back home, think about you want to do with your post-Smallville career, and I’m sure you will make the right choice for you 🙂

  • Aziza

    on May 28, 2009 at 9:32 am

    enjoy your time in Prague in Allison. Relax, rest and rejuvenate. There’s an unlimited wealth of resources in your mind patiently waiting to be unlocked. But remember, you are the one in control. Take care. 🙂

  • Aziza

    on May 28, 2009 at 9:44 am

    cute vid- I like the Shark.

  • paul

    on May 28, 2009 at 5:00 pm

    We all want to speak out boldly and passionately, to make an impact. The problem is, what to say?

  • smc17

    on October 19, 2009 at 10:44 pm

    hey allison! we met in the grocery store today… You caught me a little off guard, I was like, ‘holy crap, its chloe!’… anyways, I came across your blog, and its pretty good! you are a good writer! I’d like to see you try to challenge yourself a little more and write a piece of pop-culture criticism. I think you’d be good at it. So I did a terrible job explaining my book to you, so I think I’ll steal your own words next time I need to explain it to a random movie star in line at a grocery store.
    “I want to use the arts to challenge the way people think about themselves and the world.
    I want to strengthen people’s understanding of themselves and push people to ask questions and think. Think hard.”
    This is exactly what my book is about. Exactly. If you like, you can read a couple snippets on my blog, including an essay on Sesame Street, at http://www.bluntthenub.com

    also, you mentioned compassion a couple of times. If you aren’t familiar with David Foster Wallace, he gave an awesome commencement address on compassion that you would love. check it here: http://timm84.wordpress.com/2009/04/27/david-foster-wallace-speech/

    peace