“Life is to be lived. If you have to support yourself, you had bloody well better find some way that is going to be interesting. And you don’t do that by sitting around.”
— Katharine Hepburn
Written by one of my most favorite actresses and about some of my most favorite topics: life, work, and doing shit.
As I enter the new year I have been spending lots of time thinking about where I am and where I am going. Who I am and what I want my life to be filled with.
Never before have I ever stopped this long, been this quiet, and thought about myself this clearly.
I took some time off of everything over the holidays and really started to look at all the things I spend my time on. I suddenly realized that I am a big fat liar.
So many of the things in my life I claim to want or have are only because of the way this looks. Like I am always simply playing a part.
How silly, what a silly waste of time.
What would happen if I disregarded the “character” I am attempting to portray and actually lived for me.
This was a huge “aha!” moment I had in Ecuador.
Traveling with my girlfriends I started thinking about why I do anything.
Why keep a clean house if it is not for the company that comes over?
Why wear make up if it is not to have someone think of me as beautiful?
Why write a blog if it is not for someone else to read it?
Why play a part if it is not for the applause?
As I started to ask and answer these questions for myself, I started to see why I do these things, really.
What type of experience I am seeking for me.
Yes, we are an interdependent species. We are creates of effects and we cannot disregard our responsibility in this world.
But that being said, we must take charge of our own experience and know and understand our own journey for us.
Know and understand your own journey for you.
Know and understand my own journey for me.
That way, when I am in the experience I am in it for me.
Living it with no fear or attachment to the outcome, only the experience.
This will be the practice of 2009.
A practice free of obligation and filled with honesty.
A year of truth that will be the start to a lifetime of depth!