Another year has past and I have a fresh age; one with no mistakes in it, yet. Well, none that seem too huge anyway! I have already said I was going to do something and not done it, left my pajamas on the floor of my bathroom, and had nasty thoughts about a friend of mine who was doing something I wanted to do. But hey, I am human no?

It’s funny.Β  I remember being a little kid and looking at myself in the mirror and thinking, “When I get big, I will have it all together, I will know who I am and I will feel beautiful and confident all the time.”

Well, I am definately big now, in my late 20s in fact, and I am still waiting for the confidence and the beauty! It is so funny, I really thought I would hit a certain age and be “grown up”. Grown up? What is that? Like all of a sudden you don’t play, you don’t explore and ask stupid questions. You know what you are doing and where you are headed. How does that happen? When is it that we decide enough is enough. No more fun for you!

I think I will change the rules. Play all the time.

That is what this year will be about! Playing and relating.

I want to be a better friend, daughter, sister this year. I want to know that the most important part of my life are the people I relate to. The people I love and the people I have a strong distaste for (my mom always told me not to use the word hate!) I am beginning to coagulate as a person. I love that word, but it is true, that is how I feel. I was a runny yolk, bits of me going every which way, not knowing what to stand for, what is important to me. But this is starting to change. I am putting myself (albeit slowly) into hot water and consquently I am hardening, solidifying. Understanding what I want to stand for and why.
It is a cool and interesting process for sure.

I like. I like.

Happy Birthday to me.

With love
Allison

Add yours Comments – 78

  • Aziza

    on August 4, 2009 at 10:13 am

    Hey Allison, Happy belated birthday! I admire you for being secure within yourself even if it’s admitting that you’re not perfect. No one is really. I think the sooner we admit our faults, the less stressed out life is. When I was a kid I used to think adults had it all under control. Not. That when I grew up I would have everything planned out. I’m 23 and I’m still stumped. But it’s okay. I think the best thing for us to do is strive to make each year better than the last. So have fun the rest of the year!

  • adrenaline

    on August 4, 2009 at 11:31 am

    what’s funny is being “grown up” isn’t attained by a certain age. People do however have the ability to mature and grow (and need to), but its always good to still take time to have fun and appreciate life.

    Forget “growing up” and continue to “grow.”

  • Paja

    on August 4, 2009 at 11:37 am

    Hi Allison. Happy Birthday:)))
    I wish you happiness and lots of LOVE because you really merit it for what you are and how you feel. Please stay such woman who you are – great person.
    PS: sorry for my bad english:)))

  • Solti

    on August 4, 2009 at 12:23 pm

    Hi Allison & Allison’s fan all over the world πŸ™‚ !
    I think, the ”growing up” process is a very complex, invisible, unnoticed circumstance in our life. We notice only so much of it, that our thinking is maturer and our real values, the human appreciate in value, in us contacts, than family, friends and those who really count… this will the most important… who nourish with love, that let us be allowed to be open again onto the new one, the enduring one. Beautiful process, no? And more wonderful to experience. I think… πŸ™‚

    Happy ‘B’day to you πŸ™‚ !

    Lots of love:

    Solti

  • Ramon Silva

    on August 4, 2009 at 2:59 pm

    Happy you’re back, we missed you.

  • Ruthie

    on August 4, 2009 at 9:07 pm

    Thanks for sharing your thoughts and inspiring so many, Allison. I’m glad to be a friend of your blog πŸ™‚

  • mabel

    on August 4, 2009 at 9:11 pm

    hi allison!!! i am a 45 years old woman and…i am still growing up and keeping every experience for the next step. always. horizons never ends.
    happy birthday woman!!!

    mabel, from argentine.

    (sorry for my english)

  • mabel

    on August 4, 2009 at 9:13 pm

    hi allison!!! i am a 45 years old woman and…i am still growing up and keeping every experience for the next step. always.
    happy birthday woman!!!

    mabel, from argentine.

    (sorry for my english)

  • Jenny_1982

    on August 5, 2009 at 7:51 am

    Hey Allison,hope you had a nice birthday.

    Glad your back. I’m the same age as you and I can relate to a few things. Especially the changing the rules and Play all the time.

  • Karen

    on August 5, 2009 at 9:31 am

    Your words inspire me, they’re so very close to my own thoughts. Happy b-day!

  • Tee

    on August 5, 2009 at 10:27 am

    This sounds like me when i was in my early 20’s..haha..
    (It is so funny, I really thought I would hit a certain age and be β€œgrown up”.)

    BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

  • Smallvillekent

    on August 5, 2009 at 2:54 pm

    Happy Birthday Allison! I hope you enjoyed your B-Day!! Play alittle today.

  • Ana FlΓ‘via

    on August 5, 2009 at 8:16 pm

    Happy belated Birthday, Ms. Allison Mack!
    Just found out your birthday is on the same day as my dad’s, my uncle’s (dad’s twin), and my cousin’s (son of dad’s twin), so there’s no way I’ll ever forget it! haha

    Hope you had (and keep having) lots of fun! And hey, you shouldn’t worry, because you got the beauty, all right! You are beautiful both in your appearance and in your soul. And also, so far, in your 27 years of age, you’ve been no less than awesome, amazing, incredible and fantastic!

    Bye bye!

  • ocelot

    on August 7, 2009 at 6:05 am

    happy birthday allison

  • Susana

    on August 9, 2009 at 12:10 pm

    awww how we missed you so :)!!!!!!

    Welcome back Allison & also Happy Belated Birthday.

    I love every single time you write it makes me wish I knew how to write as well as you seriously you should conisder writing for a book or something you are really good.

    Well can’t wait till you amaze us with more of your amazing blogs

    Take Care,

    Susana

  • Ben

    on August 9, 2009 at 8:51 pm

    Happy Birthday Ms.Mack!!!!!!!! oh yeah my birthday is only a day before yours i really dont care that you didnt pick my questions. But wow ur finally on yeah!!!!!!!

  • Fox79

    on August 12, 2009 at 12:00 pm

    This is so true! I just turned 30 I have 3 kids and been married for 8 1/2 yrs and I still don’t feel like a grown up! πŸ™‚ Happy Birthday!! I just waned you to know I am a big fan of yours my husband and I have watched every season together and were worried for your character because we love er so much ad were happy to see her become the watch tower! Keep up the good work.

  • gigi_daisy

    on August 15, 2009 at 8:46 pm

    I wish you only the very best. Many blessings to you on your “growing up” journey. πŸ™‚

  • musmicl

    on August 15, 2009 at 9:59 pm

    God! I really wish that I could meet you. I love the way you think! You have this innocence about you and write really touching things. Thanks for being you!

  • Jacks

    on August 15, 2009 at 11:31 pm

    I’m not the type of person who usually shares there life with complete strangers, but today is my birthday and I wanted to let someone know.

    I don’t have a family or friends to confide in, what I have in life are my music and a journal. I’m not trying to sound like a sob story its just I believe that birthdays are a big deal and I wanted someone in the universe to know that I made it to twenty two.

    If my parents were alive we would be laughing and having a party, things would be different, I would be different.

    But anyway hello and happy birthday to the two of us.

  • Jade Ruby

    on August 17, 2009 at 2:51 pm

    I swear, Allison truly has a way of touching us deep within our hearts. Thanks so much Allison.

  • doomsfour

    on August 25, 2009 at 12:51 am

    Belated Happy Birthday Allison πŸ˜€

  • Rebecca

    on August 25, 2009 at 2:31 pm

    I’m new and therefore late to reply. First, do I detect a delicious reference to Anne of Green Gables at the beginning of this blog? If so, you’ve just made my day a bit happier.
    Welcome to the new year, and know you’re not alone in wondering how mid-to-late 20s could be adult. Did our grandmothers feel all grown up at our age? Did they have it all “together,” feel confident and beautiful and strong all the time? If so, I want to know how they pulled it off! For now, let’s agree to tell ourselves it’s okay to play and to take our time learning and changing. Maybe we’ll be the better for it when we find ourselves honestly, fully “adult.”

  • ziggy_reaper

    on August 29, 2009 at 11:58 pm

    Your a different person every day. You may wake up tomorrow and feel grown up and you may wake up the next and feel like your 5. Happens to me all the time.

  • robsonrs

    on August 31, 2009 at 3:22 pm

    happy birthday allison!!!
    you’re perfect!

  • DaveMack

    on January 14, 2010 at 11:58 am

    Allison I love you, actresses such did not find all visited during your work is wonderful, especially in Smallville … And by the way, you are very beautiful!

    kisses.

  • leane

    on August 14, 2010 at 5:05 pm

    So happy birthday a little bit late..
    It’s just amazing how you just think like me and see the world in the same way i do.I’m 20 and i’m stiil waitin’ for the confidence and co.
    Hope one day i can met you ( came see us in france) and have a very long discussion because you’re amazing…
    kisses from paris

  • Evelyn

    on April 4, 2011 at 5:29 pm

    I didn’t feel truly comfortable until 30. It was then that I said “Today is the first day of the rest of my life” and meant it.