You know what is so funny? I struggle so much to maintain anything in my life. I buy a plant, water and cultivate it for a few weeks and then it dies. I buy a sweater, wear it everyday for a month or two and then, it pills, gets dirty, and done.

It’s like I’m looking for the fresh, easy feeling and once it is over, instead of putting in the effort to build and maintain it–go really deep with it, I jump out and move on.

So consequently, I feel a strong sense of emptiness in my life. Since I began to see this in myself, I have made a pledge to build more depth in myself and in my life; to stick with things and build my ability to maintain and grow depth… just the next step in my staircase of growth!

Yay! Evolution!
xo
a

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  • Ruthie

    on May 12, 2009 at 6:30 am

    Speaking of maintenance, I just pulled everything off the walls in my house and started patching, getting ready to paint. Of course there are various pictures and such leaning against the walls all over the house and sanding to do here and there. So, I go to the kitchen and remove all the cabinet doors and their hardware, wash them thoroughly and sand them a bit, take them outside and get a started on the paint. Next I pull everything out of the cabinets, boxed and strewn all over the kitchen floor clean the cabinets, sand and start painting there. Okay, back upstairs to sand a few messy putty jobs…spackle all over the floor, vacuum out with the cord unwound (just in case I need it again later.) In the mean time, my kids need lunch, my kids need dinner, help with homework and general affection; dishes in the sink and laundry left undone not to mention the trail of toys, crayons and scrap paper everywhere. Now, I’m a project starter…always have great ideas and jump in with two feet, but, well you know. This time I have myself in deep…and I’m loving it. My house is a mess! But working hard is so rewarding. I’m determined to get this done!

    On a side note, I think one key to maintaining is simplifying. Too much of anything gets overwhelming and crowds out what’s important.

    love love love…

  • Jenny

    on May 12, 2009 at 6:52 am

    Gotta love Evolution.

  • Ornella Santilli

    on May 12, 2009 at 8:15 pm

    It will be my dream come true if you can e-mail me!!!!!!! This is my e-mail: ginis_22_08@hotmail.com
    Please, I would cry!!!!!!!! LOL!!!!
    Keep filming more and more Smallville’s seasons, DO NOT LEAVE IT!!!!

  • BOUROUX

    on May 12, 2009 at 9:46 pm

    Hi Allison.
    Maintenance is an story of life.
    Life is the struggle against disorder.
    Maintenance allows us to continue what we started. It is not necessary to start from the beginning. It’s evolution.
    We need maintenance in all aspects of our lives.
    We must take care of our body by eating and washing, maintain our home, our friendships, our passions and our motivations.
    Luck and patience are important in our maintenance activities.
    Remember your best made in the area of maintenance. You can not maintain all if you want change.
    Your 8 years as Chloe, 2 years of your blogs, your family, your friends, your passions and your career are fabulous examples of maintenance.
    Thank you for allowing us to see your evolution.
    Good night
    Claude

  • Beth

    on May 13, 2009 at 12:30 am

    Wow. We’re very different. I used to try to maintain everything in my life so much it actually became a bad habit. Last year for my birthday my nana gave me these beautiful flowers from her flower shop which was awesome. It wasn’t until they had been dead for a couple of weeks that I actually got rid of them. Since then, my sister gave me fake flowers to put in my room. That works much better for me. They’re pretty and they’ll never die.

    It’s the same with clothing. I would wait until some of my stuff was sitting in my wardrobe collecting dust for a long time after I stopped wearing it before I would buy new stuff to replace it.

    I used to really hate change. Especially in terms of letting go of anything that had any kind of sentimental value to it.
    I don’t mind it now. In fact, sometimes I like it.
    I’m evolving too.

  • Beth

    on May 13, 2009 at 12:40 am

    Marissa and Kris-I like the stuff about the stickers. When I was like ten or something I had a book full of them. I ended up chucking them out or maybe I gave them to my niece. I don’t rememeber.

    Life’s too short to waste things like that.

  • Joy

    on May 13, 2009 at 3:56 pm

    thats how you spell maintenance…got it…

    I think thats just the cycle of life. We totally contradict ourselves and don’t realize it until we’ve already done it. Although I’m always filled with highs and lows, no in between. I’ll be on a strict diet one week (maybe a whole week) and get tired of it and pig out the next. Same with homework, responsibilities, and so on. I think its important to find a balance in your life, whether you think you need one or not.

    love the posts.
    JOY

  • Karen

    on May 14, 2009 at 5:01 pm

    That’s exactly what I needed to hear. Thanks Allison.

  • Dan Frisby

    on June 1, 2009 at 1:48 pm

    Hi Allison,
    What a privilege and honor to see you on Twitter….I am a devoted fan but never thought I would have you follow me on twitter….
    I love your acting on Smallville! I NEVER miss an episode-in fact, have gotten a number of friends to watch, also.
    Thank you for your Twitter contact.

    I am a retired clergy-United Methodist-progressive in social, political and spiritual values.
    Hope all is well with you, Allison!
    KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK AND CAREER!
    Blessings,
    Dan J. Frisby

    PS. If I knew where to send for an autograph I would be honored and pleased to purchase one! Be good to yourself, Allison!