I don’t know if all of you know, but I have an amazing dog. His name is Phantom. In fact, here’s a picture of the lovely beast:


Now I’m sitting here thinking about things I’ve had for more than 5 years…

I recently went through all my clothes, and I got rid of about 6 things that I’ve had for more than 5 years! I can’t believe it!

More than 5 years… I was thinking about how I’m now 25 years old and how incredibly strange that feels. I can remember being 8 and thinking to myself, “What am I going to be like when I’m 25?” I had this whole plan in my head, like I would be planning my wedding and getting ready to have kids in 5 years. I saw myself as being incredibly together and always knowing exactly when my bills are due and having a whole schedule for my life that I consistently lived by…

Holy crap, was I ever wrong!

Here I am at 25… I run screaming from the idea of marriage, and the thought of children is so far out of my realm of possibility that I’m surprised I can even visualize the concept. I’m perpetually scattered and always a little surprised when I get the second notice of an unpaid bill. It’s funny, I really thought that being on the planet and having “things” for a long period of time would solidify my person… You know what I mean?

Would somehow help me to find permanence in myself, because after all, I’ve had this tank top for 7 years… Anyone who can do that must have it all together.

The truth is I think my dog is the most sane and concrete thing in my life. Without him and his calm and slightly goofy demeanor, I don’t know if I would be able to remember what that feels like. He is the one thing that has been unbelievably steadfast and trustworthy for the last 6 years of my life. He has been my best buddy. I adore my furry friend. So nice to feel like I have one thing I’m committed to no matter what. I know it’s not the dog that provides this for me and that it is all something I create in myself, but I guess what I’m saying is that he sure is a good reminder that sticking to one thing for a long time really does have its rewards. I don’t know if this is making sense, but I just thought I would invite you into my brain for one small simple blog entry.

Phantom– a girl’s best friend.


Add yours Comments – 124

  • RJChasez

    on February 16, 2008 at 12:33 am

    Aww. I’ve seen a picture or two of him before, and liked him, but Phantom’s even more of a cutie than I originally thought. He looks like he’d be good for hugs. :p

    I have a dog. Her name is Tiffany, and she’s an fat little Chihuahua/Jack Russell mix. She’s 14 this month, and I’ve had her since she was only about five weeks old. She’s old, and sick, and probably doesn’t have very long left, honestly, but she’s really the best friend I’ve ever had. With the exception of my good friend who lives down the street, Tiffy’s the only consistent friend I’ve ever had. It’s sad, really, but it’s also very sweet.

    Give Phantom a hug for me. I’m sure the ol boy would appreciate it. 😀

  • pandi merdeka

    on February 16, 2008 at 11:06 am

    hi phantom 😉

  • Nicole

    on February 16, 2008 at 11:40 am

    Phantom is so adorable all covered in paint!!! My dog is named Sarge and while he’s old (14 yrs) he’s still one of my best friends.

  • Susen

    on February 16, 2008 at 2:44 pm

    Hey Allison,

    I love to listen as you strive for self actualization. I’m now 39! A number that I thought I would never reach, and I still have the same thoughts running through my head. Wondering when I’m going to have it all together, know when the bills are due – but then I figure that’s not what life is all about. Just trying to live in the present, and remember that age is just a number, it doesn’t define me. You’re only young once, but you can be immature forever. Thanks for letting us in on your journey!

    Susen in St. Louis

  • Joey

    on February 20, 2008 at 4:15 am

    Good morning,

    I feel really sad because all my comments are removed… I don’t know why ! It was nothing more that a very positive Allison’s support.
    Take care all of you,
    My thoughts to Allison and Tabby,


  • Joey

    on February 20, 2008 at 2:13 pm

    Good afternoon Miss Mack,

    I would like to congratulate you because i think it was a very good idea to share a part of your mind with your friends.
    It could certainly be very positive for both your heart and soul.
    If life was a train able to make stop over at different stations, you would be at the very begining of this journey. Actually, the most important is to take the right decisions at railroad stations. Maybe should we take a profound and soft look at the deepest of our hearts as a way of being able to see and take our inside beauty. That’s very important to know a little bit more about our profound thoughts and reflexions. Anyway, If beauty of life is like a golden river flowing into the forest, i truly think that we have to be as an empty cup. I speak about both our hearts and souls. Yes ! Because i think that maybe we should be able to put some drops of this marvellous water into the cup as a way of discovering the taste of this powerful beauty. I think that we always have to learn and of course, i think that it certainly could be very interesting to take a profound regard around us and at the deepest of our hearts to get the soft taste of this golden river. But the cup has to be empty because how to taste a new tea if it is always full !
    You know Miss Mack, i think that you are a very inspirated young women and that’s perfect because you know that you can get this profound look and deep breathe inside of your mind as a way of taking the right decisions at the right moments. I think your journey is a very good one. Don’t be afraid about what occured because your train and stations are very colorful. So, let the marvellous rainbow of your heart and soul come from the inside of you then you will find and feel an ocean of confort with your thoughts or decisions. You will know that they are right and you will be always happy without doubts into your mind.
    Concerning your lovely Phantom, i think that your dog is like a very precious tool that can help you to see deep inside of your heart just like a mirror and that is very important. I will tell you that Phantom is very pretty and sounds so sweet. Well, in one line, if you can take a deep look into your heart as honnest as possible, there will be no riddle upon your head. Dear Miss Mack, please, feel free to mail if you have any questions, i will try to do my best to answer.
    My little dog is called Cali.
    Take a precious care of yourself and keep smiling,
    Have fun,
    A hug,
    Your friend always,


  • Black.Mask

    on February 21, 2008 at 1:54 pm

    Why are you torturing the dog with all that paint / red(ish) goo all over him?


    You should have a chat with the people who sign your pay check and ask them why the ratings for SV sux?

    Never mind; it’s season seven going on eight, Mikey is leaving, and the minuscule budget apparently doesn’t allow for real special effects.

    (A grip tosses some paper in front of the camera as Tom steps into frame and they dub in a whooooshie noise, wow!)

    I don’t see SV surviving another season.
    (I could be wrong, but I doubt it.)

    SV had the potential to be so much better, but what can you expect from a low budget teleplay TV program.

    What exactly does Barry (Ebenezer Scrooge) Mayer do with the 480 Billion bucks WB has?

    Does he have it locked up on a private sound stage @ WB and count the money everyday? Maybe he rolls around on it nekked, ewu, I just grossed myself out. Never mind.

    Ya ya, I know, it’s Tollin / Robbins Productions and Miller / Couch inc. make the budget decisions. (Cheep Bastards!)


    So Tab, I can see you don’t have any sense of humor at all.

    That’s right, I’m not happy unless I’m bitching about something!

  • Robyn!

    on February 23, 2008 at 12:11 am

    i know what you mean about steady things keeping you sane in life. this is present in my life as well, in my friends and my routine and school especially (I hope I don’t develop a dependency on school or I’ll be traumatized when I leave!). I think these things are like little symbols, representations of a strength of grounded(ness?) within ourselves, as you said. very wise grasshopper…


  • DavidHayes1956

    on February 26, 2008 at 10:23 am

    This topic needs a theme song!

    “My Dog”
    [based upon “My Girl” by the Temptations]

    I’ve got Phantom
    On a lonely day.
    When I need to smile,
    He’s in the mood to play.

    Well, I guess you’d say
    He brings brightness to my day.
    My dog. (My dog, my dog)
    Talkin’ ’bout my dog. (My dog)

    I’ve got doggie kisses
    Waiting for me.
    He’s got a sweeter bark
    Than a maple syrup tree.

    Well, I guess you’d say
    He brings brightness to my day.
    My dog. (My dog, my dog)
    Talkin’ ’bout my dog. (My dog)

    Ooooh, Hoooo.

    Hey, hey, hey.
    Hey, hey, hey.

    I don’t need no money,
    Fortune or fame.
    I’ve got all the riches, baby,
    One girl can claim.

    Well, I guess you’d say
    He brings brightness to my day.
    My dog. (My dog, my dog)
    Talkin’ ’bout my dog. (My dog)

    Talkin’ bout my dog.
    I’ve got Phantom on lonely day.
    He’s my dog.
    I’m always in the mood to play with my dog.

  • Erica

    on February 29, 2008 at 2:51 pm


    I still have a winnie the pooh nightie my dad bought for me when i had largyngitus when i was 10 (sorry cant spell it). I couldnt speak for a week or more and it hurt like hell. I dont think i will ever be able to chuck it out.

    Love the pic of you dog, im not in enough to have one so i have a house rabbit instead, he behaves like a dog, plays with balls and chases you. Maybe you could do a mack event themed round peoples pets. Pics of them doing funny things or wearing hats etc

    hope you are well from the across the pond.

    Erica ( Derbyshire, England)

  • Lori

    on March 3, 2008 at 10:24 am

    Hey I so relate. The plans I had in grade school are so far off from what or where I am today. It’s the fact that as children our futures are endless and our dreams often change whether intended or not. You’re not alone sister. You are not the only one who got side tracked on the the road of life. Though I have to say your life is better than mine. I mean you are on a television show with great people and a certain hotty. I’m not referring to Michael, LOL. You are still young and have so much time left to do those things you thought of when you were 8. Good luck with all the behind the scene endeavors, and on screen as well.

  • The Cradle

    on March 15, 2008 at 9:34 am

    Aw man! She runs from the thought of marriage? There goes it my chance! LOL

  • The Cradle

    on March 16, 2008 at 7:35 am

    I like the theme song! Someone do a remix of that! LOL!

  • The Cradle

    on March 16, 2008 at 7:37 am

    I had a little pup named “The Chubster” 10 years ago! I loved that dog, but I had to give him away since I was moving to another state!

  • chosenone

    on March 21, 2008 at 1:52 pm

    Hey How you doing allison Its been a while since I last sent you a note sorry I quest I been kind of bizzy . But any way How you doing today? Well I really dont have very much to say on today but um that think This season of smallville is pretty good. Must Of the blot for shows I think are great. I hope the writers take it a little furtther in clark destiny. I just hope there not close minded about it cause Ithink that’ll make it a little lest interesting. But anyway I just thought stop by the libarary just say hi .

  • Umar

    on March 27, 2008 at 6:39 pm

    Hey allison iv always wondered how it is to be famous u see im in my 3rd year of university and i had 2 pathways to go. I was an amateur boxer i love boxing and wanted to turn pro, but im a bit of a Physics geek and i find learning about Astro-Physics extremely interesting i no wat ur thinking wat a sado but i like learning about the limited theory of the big bang how many laws of science it contradicts. But im just quetioning whether i made the right decision and im trying to weigh up all the pro’s and cons of being a Boxer and fame i guess would be a major factor i recon i could become extremely good in the pro-boxing world and if i was to become famous is that a good things?

  • Umar

    on March 28, 2008 at 5:10 pm

    and allison i love ur acting skills but thats one ugly son of …. lol naa i just hate dogs i like cats more i wish i had a pet tiger like mike tyson

  • milton lima junior

    on March 30, 2008 at 1:31 pm

    hi mack I love you

    good photos

  • jonny!

    on April 2, 2008 at 6:05 am

    kewl dog

  • jonny!

    on April 2, 2008 at 6:06 am

    i have a gecko called bernie smallville owns

  • Fernando wirz

    on April 13, 2008 at 6:37 pm

    I liked much of your video you sung. Sedo I am good movie for you phase in cimena I go once to go

    🙂 Kisses

  • luis

    on April 16, 2008 at 5:38 pm

    hi!! mmm!! i think that you´re a exelent person!! end very very pretty!! jejejeje!!

  • Efrain

    on April 18, 2008 at 10:26 pm

    Sorry I’m not speak english so much, only, I want say you that you are a ineteresting people and, i lake you.

    I like this special look that you have and the light that appears of your around when you ries, I am in love with your smile.


    yours…. for ever… Efra.

    In spanish:

    Serie fabuloso conocer a la dueña de la sonrisa mas sensual que he conocido hasta el momento.
    Ojala me contestes asi sea en mis sueños….

    …. disculpame pero me inspiraste esto:

    I love you as the nigth love the stars…

  • C. Scott

    on April 19, 2008 at 3:51 pm

    I read your comment about feeling perhaps you are a fraud. Have no fear, it is a common secret held by most. The “if they KNEW what i was REALLY like, then…..” You seem to be pretty genuine, in touch with yourself and that’s AWEsome!! Don’t be so tough on yourself. I think I’ll follow that advice myself! 🙂