I don’t know if all of you know, but I have an amazing dog. His name is Phantom. In fact, here’s a picture of the lovely beast:
Now I’m sitting here thinking about things I’ve had for more than 5 years…
I recently went through all my clothes, and I got rid of about 6 things that I’ve had for more than 5 years! I can’t believe it!
More than 5 years… I was thinking about how I’m now 25 years old and how incredibly strange that feels. I can remember being 8 and thinking to myself, “What am I going to be like when I’m 25?” I had this whole plan in my head, like I would be planning my wedding and getting ready to have kids in 5 years. I saw myself as being incredibly together and always knowing exactly when my bills are due and having a whole schedule for my life that I consistently lived by…
Holy crap, was I ever wrong!
Here I am at 25… I run screaming from the idea of marriage, and the thought of children is so far out of my realm of possibility that I’m surprised I can even visualize the concept. I’m perpetually scattered and always a little surprised when I get the second notice of an unpaid bill. It’s funny, I really thought that being on the planet and having “things” for a long period of time would solidify my person… You know what I mean?
Would somehow help me to find permanence in myself, because after all, I’ve had this tank top for 7 years… Anyone who can do that must have it all together.
The truth is I think my dog is the most sane and concrete thing in my life. Without him and his calm and slightly goofy demeanor, I don’t know if I would be able to remember what that feels like. He is the one thing that has been unbelievably steadfast and trustworthy for the last 6 years of my life. He has been my best buddy. I adore my furry friend. So nice to feel like I have one thing I’m committed to no matter what. I know it’s not the dog that provides this for me and that it is all something I create in myself, but I guess what I’m saying is that he sure is a good reminder that sticking to one thing for a long time really does have its rewards. I don’t know if this is making sense, but I just thought I would invite you into my brain for one small simple blog entry.
Phantom– a girl’s best friend.