“Do something every day that scares you.” ~ Eleanor Roosevelt

You wanna know something weird and funny about me? I’m so freaked out about learning something new. Now, don’t get me wrong– I love the IDEA of learning something new… I guess where I get tripped up is in the actual effort of applying myself to building the skill it takes to feel as though I’ve learned that thing. It’s funny because I’ve learned all sorts of things in my life, and at one point they were, in fact, new things I wasn’t born knowing how to do… Huh… Let’s make a list:

  1. Walk
  2. Feed myself
  3. Talk
  4. Act on a tv show
  5. Train a dog

Really, the list goes on. But for some reason, I forgot the memories I have around building those skills, so now I’m sitting here wanting to develop myself as a filmmaker, wanting to build my skills as a business runner so that I can actualize all these great “ideas” I have, and yet I’m frozen by the panic of what it means that I don’t already have a built-in understanding of how to do those things… Like somehow, if I ask someone for help or admit that I have no clue, I’ll spontaneously combust right there on the spot. It’s amazing to me how many things I’m sure I don’t do or refuse to try because of this very paralyzing fear. I’m working on getting past this, and honestly, having things like Juicy Peach and working on films like “Alice and Huck” are amazing opportunities to push through this fear. I want to be an expansive woman who feels as though she’s lived her life with the blinders off and fully immersed… Not safely standing on the steps of the pools, nervous about what it may feel like to put her head under the water. So here’s to facing fear, diving in, and learning things I know nothing about… Truly, it’ll only enrich and enliven my experience of me


Add yours Comments – 84

  • Sarah

    on February 19, 2008 at 6:52 pm

    It’s funny that you make an entry about not wanting to learn new things. I think I’m the opposite. I love to teach myself new things! I love to dive into something I don’t know about and just learn as much as I can. Sure, there are times when I’m learning that I hit a brick wall and feel confused as ever, but after climbing that wall I feel so smart and rejuvenated for learning something new! One of my favorite feelings ever is finally getting something. When something I’m learning finally CLICKS. It’s awesome.

    Now, I’m assuming you’re talking about being a director for a Smallville episode, which I can imagine is very different. It’s not exactly a click or no-click learning process. It’s just something you have to practice and learn with experience. So, all I can say is just keep asking questions without worrying about if you look stupid or not, because I doubt that you will. People are willing to help you learn.

    I have faith in you, Allison! 🙂

  • Júllio LopeZ

    on February 19, 2008 at 8:30 pm

    Hi Linda!
    In good!
    All I watch the episode of Smallville Ali!
    I am Brazil-oh!
    Mto admire his work …
    Come curti the carnival here in the next year, ah in Salvador – Bahia – Brazil… Of course the biggest carnival in the world …
    Send an email p me,’ll be happy mto

    Bjosss of Jullio LopeZ

    Eu Amo voc̻ Рi love you

  • Fannie (montreal)

    on February 19, 2008 at 9:28 pm

    I’ve been thinking about all this …
    ( like I always do until the glorious moment arrives when you post an entry and give me a new topic to think about)

    well for starters I realized that I was scared of screwing up my economics assignement and that’s why I have’nt worked on it yet . Which makes alot of sense , I know lol. But often enough it’s when you realize you have a fear that it starts to become a much bigger deal than it actually is . Like if your behaviour and fears where strangely linked in a way . Well anyway , I was AFRAID to ask , but here I go, I am overcoming my fear of the day! I was wondering if you were willing to share with us the reason(s) behind this blog , or some of your fears?!?
    And on top of that , being in the position your in … are you scared of responding to some of your fans , knowing that they’ll respond back and this could lead to neverending correspondance?? lol


  • ThisTimeIGotIt

    on February 19, 2008 at 10:03 pm

    I have fear all the time when I think of doing somthing that i have never have done before. Though it is funny when you finally do you, you are like what was i so afraid of, it was not really that bad. It makes me wonder of all things I might of missed being to fearfull. Only somtimes, this helps me say, I might be afraid but that does not need to stop me.


  • Kyle

    on February 19, 2008 at 11:02 pm

    I understand what you’re saying, everyone at some level fears change and something knew. I think the thing to do is start off small so you can gain confidence when taking on the large things — because that’s what we want when we do things, right? — Confidence. Anyways, have fun.


  • pandi merdeka

    on February 19, 2008 at 11:16 pm

    not commenting, just want to say hi 😉

  • Phil Damico

    on February 20, 2008 at 2:37 am

    BY exposing yourself to these fears over and over, you will find that it gets easier and easier, no matter what the fear is. Thats for everybody! Aretha Franklin had a fear of flying and would cancel shows because of such, but she started taking short flights and I believe now is doing well. Confront your fears, dont let them confront you! Fear nothing! You will do fine Allison! Keep up the great work!

  • Andreia Martins

    on February 20, 2008 at 6:59 am

    Hi Allison!
    Just to send you greetings from PORTUGAL!
    Congratulations for your work and blog!
    It’s incredible how everyday you come to our homes through that magical box called tv, and it’s almost almost like we know you, you make part of our days. So strange this thing!

    Keep up the great work!


  • Jennifer

    on February 20, 2008 at 9:07 am

    Allison one thing I love about you is the way your so open with all your fans. I know the feeling of being scared to learn something new,I’m going to take Digital Photography Classes soon and as much as I can’t wait to learn all about it I’m a little freaked out. I don’t know why as it’s only a camera. I guess i share your same feelings towards applying myself to building the skill it takes to feel as though I’ve learned that thing. Take Care,have a great week.

  • DavidHayes1956

    on February 20, 2008 at 9:57 am

    It seems that Phantom has overcome his fear of new things and is doing something he always refused to do before — endorsing political candidates!


  • DavidHayes1956

    on February 20, 2008 at 10:37 am

    The producers of “Smallville” are trying something new as well. Did you see the picture of the new writing staff they hired? They are scheduled to start writing season 8 this summer!


  • Oliver Queen

    on February 20, 2008 at 12:56 pm


    Who pissed you off here?


    Ya need to find a Photoshop god and fix this image.


    It’s too yellow-green & and the flesh tones are too magenta.

    Have them air brush out the blemisheshes too.

    Ok; I get it, you’re going for the “Real Person” look, not the Hollywood Movie star look, right?

    That’s right, I’m not happy unless I’m bitching about something.

    Megamillions lottery is up to 270 million, 164.3 cash, or 98.5 million after federal taxes, oh wait a min, you’re in Canada, you’re tax exempt from down here, ya just have to stay out of the country for a year, you’ve been out for over seven, no wait, you went to N.Y. I’m confuzed.

    Tickets can be had in Washington, just under Vancouver.

    Road Trip!


    YA; I know Tab, you’re going to delete this one too.

  • Bruno Eton

    on February 20, 2008 at 6:07 pm

    Hi Allison!
    You know, one month ago I was thinking just like you, I mean, everyday I wanna try something the scares me, thus I’m gonna get more mature with it. Off course , nobody said it was gonna be easy, but fear is a barrier that we MUST go through, sometimes it’s really hard you fell like not doing it , but never give it up on trying, If you tried and failed AT LEAST you tried, and you could never know if you didn’t do such stuff . And you always have to put in your mind that it’s ok to make mistakes, we’re human beings after all ,although most of people forget this, But I do remember And don’t fell shame about it.
    And what If something actually goes wrong? it’s not like your gonna die, it’s just about the thought of “putting yourself together , hang in there ” and after this you might have learnt not to do the same mistakes in the future !! Life it’s really complicated to undestand. isn’t it? Does anybody have a life manual we can read??

  • DavidHayes1956

    on February 21, 2008 at 6:29 am

    I hear the last thing those new writer’s wrote was “Shakespeare.”

  • Carlos Eduardo

    on February 21, 2008 at 1:25 pm

    Alli, It’s not weird, it’s worthy, you are brave, because you are jumping inside new worlds of knowledge and possibilities. You want to learn besides the difficulties that you know that will come further; that’s fantastic and beautiful.

    I also use to feel that sensation and I can tell you that it’s totally stressful, specially when I find delays and deficiencies during my learning process. On those moments, I try to comprehend where are my diffculties and how to tackle the snags. My experience on this has teached me some stuff that I’d like to give you:

    1- Don’t be afraid if you feel that you want to give up. On that moment, you’ll have to think about the reason why are you trying to develop the skill. That purpose alongside all of the stuff that will come further must be your motivation.

    2- Never forget the process you had to go through to get the skill. Those are your memories and they are your truly story of self realization, where you transformed a blur in a novel, a dream in the reality. In the future, those memories will contribute to reduce that afraid to the new things, because they will make you feel stronger and ready to accept new goals.

    3- Place your motivation in front of all and think that the effort will be less in comparison with the huge happiness you will feel later.

    4- Visualize the success that you will feel when you get the skill and always think about it like an imminent future. Something that you will enjoy in “months” or “days”. I use those terms, because they’re a simple way to look beyond. For example, if it’s going to happen in a year, you could say, “it’s going to happen in 12 months”; if it is going to take place in 3 months, you can say “it’s going to happen in 90 days”.

    5- If you look the challenge like it is, you will get afraid. So you could split it into small pieces. In that way, the huge deal will reduce to tiny goals.

    6- Keep a registry of all the papers and stuff that you used to develop the skill. When you progress, you can compare your present with your beginnings. It’ll make you laugh and obviously you’ll feel proud of yourself.

    7- You have to solve any doubt you have during your learning process. If there’s something you don’t understand, feel free to ask to someone who knows. Remember that silly questions doesn’t exist; nobody was born with the knowledge. You will never forget the answers to those doubts, because there will be an experience behind each one of them.

    8- Find a song and turn it into the hymn of your struggle. Listen to it when you’re feeling that you’re falling down.

    And that’s all. I hope that my tips be useful for you.
    Remember that you can achieve it all because you’re excellent, splendid and marvelous. 🙂
    See ya

  • Tenaga

    on February 21, 2008 at 2:30 pm

    Hi Allison!

    sorry for the question but…you have a Myspace page??

    are you –> http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=13324002 ??

    anyway..i love this website!!! and i admire you! you are a very nice person!!

    kiss kiss

    Tenaga from Italy

  • le gal

    on February 21, 2008 at 2:39 pm

    Hello miss Mack the fear and a thing that one life all. But she allows us to exceed our limits beyond of what you could think. And facing his fear that allows us of can be to make better that if we were not afraid. Says your step that it is forge hat have becomes will smith. I at present i make something who frightens me. I write in English and i am afraid of not be understood

  • Darkseid

    on February 21, 2008 at 5:19 pm

    I’m sure it’s old news:


    According to an interview with DC Executive Editor Dan Didio on Newsarama, “Smallville” character Chloe Sullivan (played on the CW hit by Allison Mack) will not be appearing in upcoming issues of Superman or Action Comics as previously had been announced. According to Didio: “Chloe [sic] is an exciting character on the television show, and we had hoped to work her into DC continuity, but unfortunately, the stars did not align properly, and even though we had announced it, she will not be appearing in any of the issues of Superman or Action Comics.”

    Any comments?

  • The InfamousWB

    on February 21, 2008 at 6:31 pm

    My apologizes that I only glance at your website, off and on. We all have fears and some of those feelings are fears of failure or rejection, or both. We all have those fears but something I have learned while being in the work force is that failure only leads to growth. I’m sure most of the people that have posted on here have written similar things.

    There are many things I have jumped into with great fears and have been able to overcome them through the guidance of God, my parents, mentors, and simply by trial and error.

    I simply pray and encourage you not to fold. You do need to give it careful thought, if you are a Believer then deeply seek His guidance, then move forward in your endeavor/challenge.

    Take good care of yourself and I’ll be looking forward to seeing you back on the CW as Chloe 🙂

  • Rich Decker

    on February 21, 2008 at 6:45 pm

    you see, that’s why i don’t go to Subway, because i just don’t understand it all. you go in, they ask you what you want on a sandwich as you walk down the line, and it’s just weird. They should just let you make your own sandwich if you gotta do everything but ‘ actually ‘ put the stuff on the sandwich. Im just uncomfortable with new things i suppose, but i did it, and it turns out i hate subway LOL
    p.s. have you taken the head shots yet for juicy peach??

  • DavidHayes1956

    on February 22, 2008 at 8:21 am

    Cool Clean Water! Let’s keep it that way!


  • David

    on February 22, 2008 at 8:31 am

    I, like others here can relate. Life its self is a continual learning experience. We learn every day, often without realizing. When I panic because I don’t know something, I try to remind myself of that. It doesn’t always work. 🙂
    The problem is, our fears are often irrational and yet they can still plagues us even when we acknowledge that fact.

    Push on through your fears Allison, take that plunge. There are a lot of people who have faith in you.

  • Rafe

    on February 22, 2008 at 6:33 pm

    You know, Allison…
    I spent HOURS on the “interweb” trying to find more artists so I could talk to, or leave my message, or mail, or anything… And I found nobody BUT YOU!!! I got really disappointed and sad… now I’m wondering: Are you so special for us like this??!! Are you the only person in this environment that really cares about what we think?? Are you the only one interested in chatting with us?? Are you the only one who whants to share your life with us??


    Ciao for now…

    I Love You…


  • Neil

    on February 23, 2008 at 3:50 pm

    Hello again, Allison!

    I was reading this last post and I thought I’d pass along some kind words about what I think of your concerns and fears. I wanted to let you know how your blogging, acting, and obviously sweet persoanlity affects me on a personal level. I hope you can draw some strenght from this short poem I found.


    I want to shout it in th streets!
    Wake up!
    Life is here!
    Live it!

    Listen to the music
    The rhapsody, the symphony
    That surrounds your life

    Yet each must find it
    in his or her own way
    In their own time
    The awakening, the blossoming

    Those who find it are blessed
    They carry a special aura
    A look of beauty and insight
    Peace and wisdom

    I like myself now…
    Because of you!

    (I sent this to Kristin, also)


  • DavidHayes1956

    on February 25, 2008 at 11:25 am

    I sure wish Phantom had told me! I sould at $160.00 a share!


  • DavidHayes1956

    on February 25, 2008 at 11:27 am


    [I wish I could edit myself]

  • DavidHayes1956

    on February 26, 2008 at 2:12 pm

    By the way, when you look like Eleanor Roosevelt (which I do), doing something that scares you every day simply involves that first morning look into the bathroom mirror!

  • Scott123

    on February 26, 2008 at 10:34 pm

    Dearest Allison,

    I have begun to think-consistently-that we should have an afternoon tea, or something. Really, we should talk! 🙂 Your bald-faced examination of the human condition continues to amaze and fascinate me. I imagine you are becoming quite philosophical in grander sense. So, anyway, here is my philosophical tidbit:
    Stupid questions are free.
    Stupid mistakes are not.

    Suffering the mild indignity of asking a stupid question does not compare to the considerable indignity of being the one who made the mistake.
    “If only I had asked..”
    Well, there it is. You rock, so keep on rockin’!


  • DavidHayes1956

    on February 27, 2008 at 9:19 am

    Best wishes for your directorial debut!


  • JulieLindsell

    on March 1, 2008 at 7:46 am

    Hi Allison,
    Just recently found this site, loving it! I agree completely with your blog, we should try something new every day, no matter how scary, cos we’ll be so pleased with ourselves when we’ve done it. I really should start thinking like that! I’m a new fan of Smallville, my housemate has recently got me into it, we’re working our way through the seasons he has on dvd and I’d just like to say how much I enjoy your performances, I think you’re fab in it! 🙂

  • jonny!

    on April 2, 2008 at 1:28 pm

    i agree wiv misslane about overcoming it. this is a poor example but anyway, i had a fear of clowns when i was a kid lol, i overcame my fear by gettin 1 of them to chase me and then i realised they werent as scary as i thought apart from the two most scary clowns on earth, pogo the killer clown and pennywise. shudder. but anyway i threw a can of coke at this clown on stilts and when i knocked him over i realised they werent that bad but i still legged it wen it came after me

  • Crystal L. Scott

    on April 18, 2008 at 12:55 pm

    Because I am extremely busy these days, I will make my comments very brief.

    1. As Christian it is extremely refreshing to see a group of young actors (Clark, Lana, Pete, and Chloe) working together on a well thought out and intriguing production such as “Smallville”. I hope all of you received or will receive an Oscar.

    2. Secondly, don’t stop at episode six or seven, keep them coming!

    3. Now for the bad news. I had been very seriously considering buying the entire Smallville series (sometime before I die), but now that I have come to your website I’m not so sure. Ms. Allison you do not need any nude shots. You are a natural beauty, my goodness! Save these pictures for your husband. All America needs is your beautiful face and your tremendous talent. Same with the show. I start losing track of the story line when you throw all of the “skin” in. Leave it out, the show is too good for it. Hope this does not hurt your feelings.


    Crystal L. Scott
    U.S. Federal Government

    Wishing all four of your the very best
    In Christ power, love, and mercy!

  • Layla

    on April 24, 2008 at 2:52 pm

    Wooow, I’m a new comer to your website, but a long time fan, and right now, as i’m preparing to graduate from 4yrs of graphic design, I can so relate to what you just wrote. Thoughts of whether i’m ready to face the real world, is running through my head, like did I really make use of my time, have I really immersed myself and learned as much as I can? Have I cherished every experience? Did I make it count? and what the hell am I gonna say if they ask me to do something on the first day and i have nooooo clue? lol

    And yeah I know the feeling of fear of trying something new all to well, and your right it can really be paralyzing. Like you get choked up about it, or you start procrastinating …. in fact I’m procrastinating right about now, lol..oooo i should get back to work on my thesis.. but the thought of it is paralyzing i’m tellin yaa!
    Anywayz just wanted to drop by and show ya sum luv! I really like your blogs, it’s refreashing to see the real person behind Chloe Sullivan. I really luv your character, and I wish you luck in all that you do!

    And your right we should all face are fears, and just live and learn!

    Toronto, Canada

  • elielson levi

    on May 20, 2008 at 7:04 pm

    hello allison live in brazil and love to smalville series. and especially of its character. but in fact what I like is that you hope you answer me kisses