I know why I love what I do! I never feel so connected to myself as I do when I am acting on stage. There is something so incredibly alive to performing with an audience. The exchange between viewer and performer is the most intimate and beautiful conversation. Never do I feel as connected and honest as I do on stage. So I guess then the goal is to built my capacity to being that, feeling that, living that all the time. Whether it is a 60 seat sold out house, or a busy subway train, an intimate dinner, or a new friends house. I will learn this joy outside the theater. I promise me.

ps… the video blogs!!!
better late than never!

Add yours Comments – 28

  • william

    on May 22, 2009 at 8:34 pm

    I hope you do find and have joy always allison. Thanks for the videos, looks cool but you where only in one like 3 seconds!!! look forward to your blog everyday, don’t work to hard,

  • arash

    on May 22, 2009 at 8:55 pm

    That is just crazy.
    In a very good way.

  • Silvia

    on May 22, 2009 at 8:57 pm

    Hi Allison,

    Sounds to me from what you said that you’ve been enjoying the best of times in Prague. 😀

    “I will learn this joy outside the theater. I promise me.“
    – That’s one of the very best things you can promise yourself. I wish you that you learn this joy outside the theatre. It’s so wonderful, isn’t it? I know this joy from some British actors. The stage – they wouldn’t give it up for all the tea in China. It’s so fantastic, a perfect dream and I wish you this joy for the rest of your life inside and all around you.


  • David Hayes

    on May 22, 2009 at 9:09 pm

    Acting on a stage. I did that once. That was enough. I even got a little award — best male performance out of 4 plays with 50 other men in the casts. But I couldn’t have done it if the audience had existed for me … or if it had been me (not a character I became) on the stage. The thing that threw me was that I rehearsed the part thinking the character was an energetic, dynamic young man and, on the day of the show, they put flour in my hair and told me that I was supposed to be very old. I decided it was too late to play the part any differently than I had rehearsed it and it woked. I was 13 but even then, I didn’t think you had to be young to be passionate and have ideals. The audience didn’t make a sound when I was on stage and I didn’t want to know they were there, so I was grateful that they didn’t. So I don’t know what it’s like to have an audience reaction, feed on it and respond to it.

    I have had that kind of experience in a handful of personal conversations in my life where people have really got caught up in what I was saying and reacted. It’s kind of sad that I have only had that happen a few times in 52 years. I usually don’t get a chance to talk enough to convince anyone that I might have something interesting to say before I’m tuned out. But when those moments happen, they can resonate through your life for years. [3 years ago … Metropolis, Illinois … 2 or 3 minute conversation with Michael Rosenbaum … still sticks with me. Another conversation I had 34 years ago with a total stranger will probably always shine as a brilliant moment in my life … even though I can’t exactly remember what I said.]

    With writing, I’m alone by myself or alone in a crowd and everyone is oblivious to what I am creating. So there is no immediate feedback … usually no feedback at all. And feedback is what keeps you on course. A stand up comic knows when he’s off course because of the crowd’s reaction or lack of … and he/she can steer back towards something that works. Steering is a topic in itself. In a boat, you can’t steer once and get on course. The correction will send you back across the desired path but momentum will take you on past that path until you make another course correction … which again will take you across the path and beyond. Steering is a lifetime activity.

    At least on the forum, there is a view count so I can see that there have been about 4000 views of the stories I posted there. But whether it is enjoyment of the stories or people’s impulse to view road kill that keeps the count going up, who can [will?] say?


    So my day was one of destruction and construction. I kicked a shower stall to pieces, tore up roomfulls of carpets, broke apart bath room vanities … but I also installed ceiling fans and light fixtures. And I had a transformer on an electric pole 22 feet away from me blow up … at least part of it. Strange days.

  • Susana

    on May 22, 2009 at 9:13 pm

    oh awesome congrats on opening night I am sure that it was great. I hope to maybe see something at least a bit of it I think that is so amazing. What you guys did just seems so cool, & fun, & alive :).

    I hope the rest of your trip is awesome & I am glad to hear you learnt from your experience 🙂

    Take Care,


  • Eduardo

    on May 22, 2009 at 9:16 pm

    nice Vids. its nice to act any where i once made a play with my school it was realy fun i was Pontius Pilate in jesus Christ Superstar its realy nice to make those things and we actualy made it on a round stage so we cant use an escenography. but well hope you have fun

  • Eduardo

    on May 22, 2009 at 9:18 pm

    oh jeah good morning its 6 17 am

  • Lydia

    on May 22, 2009 at 11:16 pm

    It is wonderful all the things you’re learning about yourself.

    I’m happy for you that you enjoy performing on stage. I wish that many more opportunities will come your way to do theatre.

    I’d like to see pictures and/or more vidéo blogs.
    I read that Crossed Wirdes is based on an e e cummings poem “somewhere I have never travelled, gladly beyond”.
    Can you please tell us more about the story, what it is exactly that you’ve all put to together (music, singing, dance, art, multi-lingual performance,…)?
    And, what character do you play?

    Enjoy your stay and enjoy yourself on stage.

  • Jade Ruby

    on May 23, 2009 at 12:40 am

    Getting those good vibes, grasping them and holding them, living them and sharing them, and most of all–being them, being you. The world is your stage.

    I hope Prague is treating you right as you take in it’s sights. Thanks for sharing the blogs Allison.

    J R

  • Jade Ruby

    on May 23, 2009 at 1:00 am

    You know, I was thinking. . . I’ve never had a chance to visit a hundreds of years old castle. Maybe you could check out a couple of those old fortresses in your travels.

  • Jade Ruby

    on May 23, 2009 at 1:06 am

    I’ve been to a couple of theater-in-the-round performances. The minimalist set designs are intriguing; however, I’ve never attended one of those audience participatory productions.

  • Jade Ruby

    on May 23, 2009 at 1:13 am

    Ha, ha! All of a sudden I think of “Midnight Movie Madness” that was a part of my generation’s audience participatory movement, that transcended live actors. Ha!

  • Jade Ruby

    on May 23, 2009 at 1:28 am

    I thought this video was interesting, so I guess I should share it now.

  • Jade Ruby

    on May 23, 2009 at 1:51 am

    This is ‘it’ for me. I “lose” according to those old ass paradigms. They really need the comfort of the-I-can’t-do-it-til-you-pay-me!

  • Jade Ruby

    on May 23, 2009 at 1:53 am

    Thanks Allison, take us outta here!

  • Robin

    on May 23, 2009 at 2:33 am

    Congratulations in “CrossedWires” reaching opening night, each of you should be very proud!

    I’m so glad you are getting such a blast out of performing on stage.

    I love film, television and reading …..but with theatre, sitting in the audience, it’s the being in the moment of a live performance, knowing that anything could happen, each performance is slightly different, as the actors, directors and lighting techicians shape, adapt each show as they go…it’s so exciting!

    Keep having fun

  • Avitable

    on May 23, 2009 at 5:51 am

    Since last night was opening night, break a leg belatedly!

  • Lohengrin

    on May 23, 2009 at 6:18 am

    Ciao Allison

    Theatre is great!!
    The audience has the sensation to be linked with the actor and, in somehow, to have a part in the performance, and the actors can fell directly its sensations and reactions.

    I saw the videos, it seems you have a fine company!

    ciao ciao

  • Brittany

    on May 23, 2009 at 7:54 am

    Hey Allison! Thanks for posting these great videos! You’re friends seem very nice, extremely creative and inspiring! I wish you & the crew, the best of luck for the project and I hope you guys have a wonderful time sharing it with everybody!
    Take care!

  • Jenny

    on May 23, 2009 at 10:36 am

    Thanks for sharing the videos Allison. You have a great group of friends working with you. Hope opening night went well for you.

  • Aziza

    on May 23, 2009 at 1:14 pm

    these are people who love what they do.- :). Thanks for sharing.

  • Smallvillekent

    on May 23, 2009 at 1:28 pm

    Allison I am glad you are enjoying yourself. I hope opening night goes well.

  • Amanda N.

    on May 23, 2009 at 3:14 pm

    Congraulations on you guys making it to opening night,it must have been so exciting to finally perform all your hard work.I love what you said about performing in front of a live audience.I imagine that actors must really love to do that.I know film and television can be very exciting to be involved in.But there is nothing like being on a stage and putting on a play in front of people.I have never done it,but I have seen a couple plays and the actors really look like they enjoy being in an environment such as that.I’m sure that the premiere of Crossed wires went fabulous.Everyone in the videos seemed confident that it would go well.

    Thanks for posting the videos.I always love seeing bts type of stuff.Documentaries and commentaries always make me happy cause I get to see and hear how the show was put together.So the video blogs made me giddy to get a little inside scoop on the play.I have to say that both Katies are really funny.All the people there are very nice and seem like wonderful people who are excited to be there and put on an amazing show.It’s nice you involve and associate yourself with people like this.

    Btw the sexy clock dance was AWESOME!Joe and Jessica looked hilarious doing that,I loved it.It would be great to see you do that Allison,you know if you ever get the time and chance maybe you could get Katie T. to film it.The big dork in me would really appreciate it.

  • Tucker

    on May 23, 2009 at 4:12 pm

    Oh my. Being on stage and sharing that relationship with an audience is the greatest high and most organic thing in the world. (Sure, orgasmic, too.) To be honest, to be connected, to take that journey together. For me, I still haven’t found anything greater than that. Yet.

  • Beth

    on May 23, 2009 at 10:09 pm

    I completely agree Allison.
    There’s nothing like performing on stage in a live theatre production. It’s the most amazing natural high and it’s so thrilling and joyful. I love that you are having such a good time with this project and you seem to be surrounded with amazing artists and you are all working really well together. I’m glad opening night went well and good luck for the rest of the shows.

    ps- the video blogs are great. keep them coming!


  • Sean

    on May 24, 2009 at 2:57 am

    Somehow I missed this entry yesterday.
    This explains your goals for your Blog too, perhaps?

    You say: “The exchange between viewer and performer is the most intimate and beautiful conversation.”

    My time in front of groups of people is very limited, and was usually too stressful of an time for me to experience anything more than:
    A.) They are bored.
    B.) They are confused.
    C.) They are listening and what I am saying is coherent.

    There is more obviously…
    …what is it that you experience back from the viewer?

    I can refer to audience scenes of “The Illusionist”, or from episodes of “Seinfeld”, etc… for common reference, but I’ve never been part of your “live audience”, and audience of TV/Film certainly isn’t making it back to you through time, transmission, and media.

    Are you referring to an exchange of “experiences” between viewer and performer? Or emotions?

    I can understand the concept of “conversing emotions”, as you as performer are putting emotion into your performance, creating the experience of the play, and the audience then responds with some natural emotion (although unawares usually) while watching the performance.

    A verbal conversation is between two or more people who can if they desire, equally input… it doesn’t seem to me the performer/audience conversation of emotion, can (or ought) to be as equal.

    I mean imagine if someone in the audience stood up, started to walk around, and interact with the performers on the stage? That would change the performance to being a verbal conversation, between the stage, and those standing in the audience.

    So back to the Blog comparison…
    You make an entry… that’s like you doing a performance in front of an audience.
    We comment… and if you read our comments, that can be like you getting a sense of emotion from the audience.
    If you reply to our comments as a whole in a new Blog entry, then you keep the exchange at the performer/audience level.
    If your reply directly to our comments, then it changes to being a verbal conversation with someone in your audience.

    So outside the theatre, will you be manipulating the expression of your emotions to insure you get that joyous experience of the theatre?
    Or will you be willing to simply share your raw honest emotions, and to take those same raw honest emotions from the people you are with?

    And are you open to the experience of negative emotions that real life inevitably tosses up on occasion? Or will you be filtering everything through rose-colored glasses, and accept only the positive?

    I hope your time in Prague is going and will continue to go well.

    -Someone standing in the audience.

  • Maria

    on May 24, 2009 at 12:38 pm

    Man how fun!! Acting on a stage … I miss it! 🙁 The blogs were very cool and I have to say I LOVED the sexy clock dance LOL

  • Ornella Santilli

    on May 24, 2009 at 1:12 pm

    Hi, Alli: That’s right! It is amazing to act in a theatre because you can feel audience’s feelings and reactions!

    I wish you the best of this Universe!!!! I send you a lot of positive energy from Argentina!!!!!