Wrote this a few days ago:

That is definitely the name of the game tonight. I start my first day of directing on the set tomorrow; all the preparation I have done over the last year still cannot prepare me for what I am imagining the endeavor to be. I am so nervous. Excited, but nervous about the whole experience. But I am thinking that is a good thing. Alive, which is always good.

This prep process has been incredibly rewarding for me as far as my personal growth is concerned.
I have been able to see my failures in the type of person I want to be and really work to overcome them. It is an amazing thing to have such a strong and clear mode of calibration.

So now I am sitting in my living room, staring at my script, going over and over and over my ideas and shots. I think it is time to give the kid her lunch box and send her off to school. You can only learn so much before you have to simply dive in! Test the treading water lessons! Just go!
xoxo
a

Add yours Comments – 98

  • Dana

    on November 21, 2008 at 7:52 am

    Just remember that whatever the outcome, the lessons you’ve learned and mistakes you’ve made a long the way are your true reward. Now if only a viewing audience could see that. 🙂

    It’s great to see someone with so much passion and drive. Unfortunately, those can be both a blessing and a burden. The directing stint will be all the better off because of it, but like you said, when you put your whole heart and soul into you want it to be good, a reflection of yourself….and thus, overthinking.

    Your fans will support you no matter the outcome.

    Live in the moment,
    Dana

  • jennifer

    on November 21, 2008 at 8:14 am

    Since you wrote this a few days ago that means you’ve already started directing. Hope all is going well for you. Enjoy every minute of it. and to quote Robert “Just trust in yourself and those around you, and everything else will be fine” Best of luck <3

  • Vegas911

    on November 21, 2008 at 9:12 am

    What is it like to not be broken?

  • N

    on November 21, 2008 at 9:38 am

    So, when will the ten sponsors get their sponsor packs… now that the Alice and Huck film has premiered?

  • Jen

    on November 21, 2008 at 10:35 am

    You are going to be so great as director!
    Best of luck!

  • David Hayes

    on November 21, 2008 at 10:54 am

    Vegas,

    Who are you asking? Because I can’t answer that one. I can’t remember that far back.

  • Kyle

    on November 21, 2008 at 12:02 pm

    You’ll be fine. You have a great support group to help you.

  • James

    on November 21, 2008 at 1:38 pm

    Yeah, you overthought it a little:) You’ll do alright. Just make good art.

  • Darwin

    on November 21, 2008 at 1:38 pm

    Go Allison! *waves flags*

    I can testify jennygirl’s cookies are amazingly yummy!

    So that backs up David Hayes theory about the smile…

    Lou!

    Spoken like a true “waskelly wabbit”…

    AS to Notes to help you through the day…
    I heard of an ADMIRAL who died…and when he died they opened his strongbox.

    Inside was a small piece of paper that said: “Starboard – Right
    Port – Left”

  • David Hayes

    on November 21, 2008 at 1:44 pm

    POSH = best shipboard accommodations — Port Out Starboard Home. But wouldn’t that depend on where home is and where you are headed to?

  • viviane

    on November 21, 2008 at 4:32 pm

    Allison hello …
    I’m sure you will do a great job directing the program, never doubt this, you are one of my favorite actress! his work is wonderful … good luck in directing, not that you need because as I said you are the best!
    have a good night, take care … love you girl!

    PS: I read on the Internet today q Smallville will make a pause and will return in January! I was very happy to know that we will not take to see you again!

    kisses!
    Viviane – Brazil 🙂

  • renee

    on November 21, 2008 at 4:34 pm

    Allison I say do not be scared of doing your job you will be great! I am a cancer survior so far and what I have learned not to live life in fear but take control of your life and do your dreams. I also have two girls 8 and 11 who I would gladlly send in for extras (it is a snow day). And with your directing if the cast gives you any grief tell them drop and give 20. I will see your showand give you feed back. Please reassure us the smile at the end of bride was because you got knock on the head and thought DD was Jimmy. I notice sometimes you dought yourself in many ways. But I have never seen such deep emotion for what you blog and you tend to make people stand and say wow that was deep. GOD Bless Renee<

  • Brittany

    on November 21, 2008 at 7:52 pm

    Hey Allison! I’m so excited for you to direct a smallville episode! I hope you have fun and don’t worry too much. You are so talented and your amazing ideas and opinions will make this episode really cool and creative! Best of luck!
    Much love and support,
    Brittany XOXOXOXOXO

  • Shawn

    on November 21, 2008 at 8:58 pm

    Congrats! Congrats! Congrats!! OW OW! Girl…you are so awesome!! I wish you so much luck! All you need to do is keep the faith! =)

  • David Hayes

    on November 21, 2008 at 9:35 pm

    Uh-oh. They shut the lights off on me at work again!

    I guess I’ll have to feel my way outta here!

  • Summer C.

    on November 21, 2008 at 10:28 pm

    That last shot in “Bride” that featured Chloe and Doomsday paired with the haunting music was so…so…compositionaly awesome! The rule of thirds was broken. Simply put, I was blown away and I can’t believe that after four years of watching this show, I’m still excited for the new eps…and on top of that, I have new found inspiration to finish my final project in my photography class. Thanks!

    Anyway, good luck with directing!

  • David Hayes

    on November 21, 2008 at 11:20 pm

    Got home okay.

    With about 8 weeks before new episodes of “Smallville” begin to air, I wonder how long the cast is going to get off.

  • Neil

    on November 21, 2008 at 11:45 pm

    You go, girl!! I know you will be extremely successful at this endeavor. You have more insight into your craft than just about any actor I’ve ever heard of or read about. I just know you’ll do a great job! Break a leg, kiddo!!

    Neil

  • jennygirl

    on November 21, 2008 at 11:46 pm

    Christopher…do not make her feel bad for not posting more! She is showing balance as she is a busy girl right now!

    Darwin and David…thanks for the cookie shout out. Made me smile.

  • mar1013

    on November 22, 2008 at 2:06 am

    Good luck with your director debut. You are going to do it very, very well!

    So enjoy yourself and do it as well as you can. I’m sure we will appreciate all your hard work

  • Gnome

    on November 22, 2008 at 5:08 am

    *Gnome suporting mode*

  • Ron St.Amant

    on November 22, 2008 at 6:26 am

    You’ll do wonderfully Allison.
    Let your creativity shine through!
    We can’t wait to see the show!!

  • Pamela

    on November 22, 2008 at 12:26 pm

    I have every faith in your ability to direct. You have been so committed to preparing for this. Have faith in yourself and your wonderful ability 🙂 🙂

  • Ross UK

    on November 22, 2008 at 1:32 pm

    David – re POSH, it originates from the days of the British Empire when people went from Britain to India and back. The idea was that, since most of the journey (round the horn of Africa) was in the southern hemisphere, you got the most sun on the port side on the way to India and the starboard side on the way back to Britain.

    Font of useless information – that’s me.

  • Paja

    on November 22, 2008 at 3:14 pm

    Hi allison, I´m sure that you´ll manage it and the 13. episode will be the best of this season. I would like to say you that many people from my country (Czech Republic) looking forward to it. I wish you luck:)

  • Natália

    on November 22, 2008 at 3:44 pm

    I’m sure you’re great at directing. Simply because you feel so passionate about acting and also because you love life and it’s little artistic details. 😀

  • The Friday Philosopher!

    on November 22, 2008 at 4:30 pm

    Ross, one man’s useless information is another man’s Bible!

  • Brittany

    on November 22, 2008 at 5:15 pm

    Hey fellow bloggers! Does anyone know why the next new episode is airing in January?
    If you do please let me know!
    Britt

  • orsi998

    on November 22, 2008 at 5:38 pm

    hi Allison!
    Good luck! you will be so great just trust yourself!
    I can’t wait to see your episode!
    hug: Orsi
    ps: yes Brittany the next epi airing in January 15…long time

  • Brittany

    on November 22, 2008 at 6:49 pm

    Thanks Orsi998 but I mean why is it airing in January? Like why not usually the next week?
    Thx, Britt

  • arash

    on November 22, 2008 at 7:02 pm

    I think I can explain;
    Chloe has gone to fortress on her honeymoon, that is north pole she will be visiting santa too and will be back in Jan.

  • SeanB

    on November 22, 2008 at 7:38 pm

    Hey Allison. Just wanted to let you know my wife and have spent the last 16 months watching every episode from Season 1 to two episodes away from midway point of Season 8. We think your character is the bomb and without you, Smallville would be nothing. You’re a perfect fit for the role and you’re a great actress. I hear now you’ll be directing some future episodes, so have fun with that, and get Clark back! Don’t let them hook Clark up with Lois Lane! Boo! 🙂

    Keep on blogging! See you on the tube.

    Cheers,
    SeanB

  • David Hayes

    on November 22, 2008 at 7:51 pm

    Brittany,

    In past seasons, we would only get a few new episodes before we got a repeat or repeats maybe due to post-production. This year we have been blessed with a team determined to deliver on a regular schedule. But what we have now is the regular mid-season hiatus. I always think it is too bad when it happens becuse I would love some holiday episodes. We’ve had a few (one Christmas and one Haloween I believe … “fang you very much”), but I tend to like holiday episodes.

  • David Hayes

    on November 22, 2008 at 7:53 pm

    Arash,

    Strangely, Santa will find that Chloe is on BOTH his naughty and nice lists.

  • arash

    on November 22, 2008 at 9:40 pm

    Last episode gave me a lot of hope.
    I am forgetting things recently, I think brainiac is taking over, my IQ should be soaring now.

  • arash

    on November 22, 2008 at 9:50 pm

    David,
    Yes, smallville has totally screwed up santa’s data spread sheet.

  • Darwin

    on November 22, 2008 at 11:47 pm

    Hey jennygirl! You’re welcome! Just speaking truth!

    Brittany: I do believe the commercial I saw said new episodes would be back on January 15th…for the reasons that David Hayes said.

    In fact…

    I think the commercial even quoted David Hayes as their reference.

    Ross UK: It’s NEVER useless information once you find someone who has the question that matches!

  • Jade Ruby

    on November 23, 2008 at 12:04 am

    How’s this for off topic?
    Dr. Pepper is giving away free sodas!
    On 11/23/2008 only, every American
    is entitled to a free Dr. Pepper to celebrate
    Guns & Roses new album.

    http://www.drpepper.com/freeDrPepper/sorry.php

  • Bouroux

    on November 23, 2008 at 12:19 am

    Hi Allison.
    It is inspiring to see how well you have prepared for this wonderful challenge.
    More ours experiences are good, the more they make us change. You already see the positive sides of the process and the best is yet to come.
    For nervousness, do not worry, once on the film set, your capacity will be increased.
    I’m sending you positive thoughts.
    In Abyss and Bride , you was fabulous and charming.
    Chloe chose Pachelbel’s canon in D Major for her wedding. For my wedding, we have chosen this music and the music of the film “The sound of music”.
    Good luck.
    Good night
    Claude.

  • medina

    on November 23, 2008 at 12:41 am

    congratulations allison

  • MAKIBOI

    on November 23, 2008 at 2:25 am

    i admire your being true to yourself, admitting your only human in every step you take. its the first step of bringing out the creativity inside your brain and passion inside your heart. rocks On! make it happen. we love you here in the philippines……………….boy scout….

  • paul

    on November 23, 2008 at 4:17 am

    I am impressed that you can admit that you are nervous, that you are so open about your own limitations. That takes guts.

  • Ross UK

    on November 23, 2008 at 6:20 am

    Someone once told me that the reason there’s a gap in the schedule of December-January is that a lot of people go away on holiday at that time. Since many shows are largely funded by advertising revenue, they try to show them when as many people as possible will be around to watch the adverts. Cynical, moi?

  • Ross UK

    on November 23, 2008 at 6:22 am

    The advantage of watching the show when it becomes available in the UK is that we usually don’t have to wait for new episodes since we’re so far behind the US. Last season was the exception for many shows due to the writers’ strike. That was confusing for me – I’d switch on for a new episode and experience major déjà vu.

  • kerrie

    on November 23, 2008 at 6:24 am

    i’m sure your work will be amazing..and if not we’ll all hate you and never post messages or support anything you do ever again…

    just kidding!!!!
    it’ll be great Allison. Just trust yourself and you will be able to do anything.

  • Brittany

    on November 23, 2008 at 3:23 pm

    Hey Thanks David & Darwin!
    Britt

  • Darwin

    on November 23, 2008 at 10:36 pm

    You are MOST welcome Brittney!

  • SolShine7

    on November 26, 2008 at 3:59 am

    The way you’re able to capture your feelings into words is really amazing. That line about “sending the kid to school” says it perfectly. I can’t wait to see your episode!