Written June 14th:

Ok, so I feel like Thumblina. I am the smallest girl in the world right now. My car feels too big, my house feels too big, the world feels huge. I have never been so aware of how small and insecure I feel most of the time. I look at the world around me, I look at the over inflated idea I have of myself and I look at the things that inspire me. The balloon pops, I fizzle when reality sets in.
But I am humbled, I am humbled and I am grateful.

My ego has been exposed as a facade and I am a much nicer person for it. It is funny, we ask for change, we seek it out, and yet once we find this change, we are surprised by the growing pains. So this Thumblina will tuck herself into her massive bed, count her blessings and thank each and every person in her life. In this big wide world it is nice to know you are not alone on the miniature shelf.

love love love
it’s all you need.
xo
a

Add yours Comments – 54

  • Ben

    on July 8, 2009 at 2:17 pm

    Ah! and hope you feel better from that thumblina you shouldnt worry your going to be laughing and the moment your sad about ( I heard If you laugh about waht you sad about you feel way much better.

  • Electra

    on July 17, 2009 at 8:28 am

    Hi Allison,

    When I put myself through changes, I don’t have much pain for acceptance is my guiding light. I accept that change asks for losing something. I live reality. Henceforth there can’t be a popping big bubbling bubble for me. I am who I am and I live and show who I am. Masks and facades… well, yes, if necessary I use those for the better good, but I put them back aside as soon as they served their purpose. Yet using a masquerade is always an exception for me. The question is why do you need a facade? Don’t you like yourself? Well, it’s just an idea, but can it be that you think people wouldn’t like the person you really are? I mean, maybe you think you sort of have to be somebody else for people like you all the time. If so, forget about that for this is not necessary. It’s hard to be famous, I know, the more important it is to appreciate the little things. The love, friendship or admiration of a few people or a single person is much more meaningful/important than the admiration of thousands of people. However, a change means to change and not to mask yourself. No matter if you feel small or great – everybody is somebody and I think you have no reason to feel so insure and small. Stand by you and if you dislike the way you are, then change it – change, not mask.

    Quote: “love love love it’s all you need.”
    – It’s all WE need and so I’m sending much love to you.
    xo
    Electra

  • Jessy_Ingrid

    on July 19, 2009 at 2:45 pm

    **Hugs**

  • Vondaz21

    on July 20, 2009 at 5:26 pm

    No matter what you do just remember that “today is the beginning of all of your tomorrows” live with no regrets and joy. As I always say “love is life” and when you live with love you live life. I wonder though, what’s happening that’s depressing you so bad love?