I have been reading all the “A bit about you” posts and I must say that I am so excited by your posts. I set a goal for myself to increase the amount of daily hits by 50% in 3 months… I set this goal in August, so it is up in October and I’m now halfway through.

As I began posting every day, I saw, thanks to the handy google analytics, that the amount of people coming through daily increased steadily as I increased my blog postings. This was super cool! Then they started to level off. So I thought to myself “ok, what now?”

This is when I decided that maybe making a poll and seeing more details about the people that come to my site might help. This would give me the information I need to see what direction people are coming from so I can see which way best to go. Ultimately, I am striving to create a community of diverse people who come together to express themselves. To explore, ask why, and share the conclusions they come to.

My interest in expanding the group is simply to create more diversity, more opinions, go deeper and seek farther. I recognize that I have an advantage when it comes to gathering people in one place and I want to take advantage of that advantage.

I want to encourage myself to sit daily and contemplate and share.
I want to encourage myself to appreciate small things, to make art out of every day, and I hope that the ripple of me doing this in a more public and community oriented forum will do this.

I feel as though I have something started, but now I want to go to the next step.

The Internet is a beautiful tool of globalization. It is an amazing invention we as people have designed and expanded upon, and rather than use this as a weapon to destroy and separate I would like to use it as a tool build and evolve. So this is why the interest in expanding and branching out. This is why the desire to reach more.

Not because I want to be rid of the intimacy, but simply because I want to extend the intimacy; ultimately see what sort of emergent property can come of this experiment.

I have loads of ideas of off shoots of something like this community and all my time off I spend building communities of people who want to build and create together.

So there it is. Why I am doing this.

Every morning I feel a questioning sense of panic, “What is the point?” I ask myself. “Why am I doing this?”

Usually I glaze over these questions, busying myself with the day to day so as not to focus on thinking and finding answers, until today.

So thank you all for the replies, and thanks to those who questioned why I am doing what I am doing. Funny thing is the questions are never really answered, and the thoughts I put out there are never fully solved.

I find panic in this because answers feel so good, but really, the curiosity of life is what I seek to uphold. A reminder of this is so important.

I feel like a big fat tattoo of CURIOSITY might be helpful… ha… too bad I am an actress and this would certainly type cast me. 🙂

Thanks for the interest.

Why do you do what you do? Do you spend most of your time distracting yourself from answering this question? Tell me? Why are you doing the things you are doing in your life?

It’s a really interesting question to ponder… sort of one step further from the “beliefs” post we have been doing.

Ciao for now.
xo
allison

Add yours Comments – 72

  • Maria

    on September 4, 2008 at 4:13 pm

    I most definitely admire what you want to accomplish to do with this site! Very COOL!

    Why do I do what I do? Well, right now I’m in the phase in my life of exploring what I can do and how can I apply it in my life. Example: I’ve discovered recently that I LOVE to write. You know stories and all of that and I’ve been thinking how can I apply it in my life. Like in the future or right now and really I’m trying to discover what I can do for my future. You know, I’m pretty much just trying to see what I’m going to do in my future.

    So, I’m just in the phase of exploring,discovering and actually just looking around me and see what is worth keeping for in my future and what’s not.

    And lastly, I’m just trying to kind of live my life as it comes to me you know. Not worrying so much of what people think about me, or reminding myself of my past or regretting so much of what I did. And I have to say that part of that is Thanks to YOU and you’re amazing blogs!! This blog has certainly helped me appreciate life a bit more and appreciate the things around me a lot more!

    THX 4 THAT!!

    XoXo

    Maria

  • Taty

    on September 4, 2008 at 4:30 pm

    Great Job Allison! I love it! your blog is a true inspiration!!!

    A little bit about me…
    I love travel, meet new people and different cultures,and learn foreign languages too (I’m studing english and spanish). So, I choose “Tourism” as my career because is a great way for me to do this and I love it!!!
    I’m also a Sunday school teacher at my church, teaching the 3-7 year olds every Sunday morning… and I love so much my little students.

    Ps. I want to say more thing, but my english is so poor… I’m learning. Sorry!!! 😉

    xoxo
    Taty
    Rio de Janeiro, Brazil.

  • Scott123

    on September 4, 2008 at 4:33 pm

    Dave,
    You know, except for the rental issues, and being married, I thought for a minute that you were talking about me! I was quite frankly a little disturbed at the similarities in our lives. BTW, if I poked you in the ribs about being wordy, I apologize, I meant it in good way. You see, I too suffer from the malady of “Excessive Alliteration”.

    Why do I do what I do?
    Because I dream.

    Your friend,
    Scott123
    PS Not so wordy I know, but I realized that in action, I’d rather not over think it, just get to it.

  • I'm Rachel

    on September 4, 2008 at 4:59 pm

    Why do i do the things that I do? Because I know I have a purpose and I am so close to finding that purpose.

  • Daisy

    on September 4, 2008 at 6:09 pm

    Hi Allison, I haven’t been replying back to you blogs lately but I have read them. I love all these interesting questions that you ask. They really make me think deeply. Good job with the poll on the side. I’ll have to participate after I finish this. So to answer your question, I think I do what I do to make the world a better place. Now that may sound cheesy, but I don’t know how else to answer your question. I try my hardest to do what I believe is right. I love helping others. I would like to leave this world a better world for my grand children. Gosh I will have to think about this one more but that’s all I’ve got for now. Take care!

  • David Hayes

    on September 4, 2008 at 7:02 pm

    Scott,

    Don’t worry about the ‘wordy’ comment. I just took it and ran with it. If that was the worst thing anyone called me, I’d probably be very happy … though that’s hard to imagine.

    And I have checked with a few people and those that the links work for see the files with an FTP address. I think there i a computer setting that you can check or uncheck to allow your computer to see FTP files. Friday Philosopher is going to do an experiment with my site to see if it helps . But it was great knowing that there was a problem. It’s like a AM Blog topic — if you see that a friend’s fly is open, do you tell him and embarrass him by doing so in hopes of saving him even more embarrassment … or do you hope he’ll notice on his own? Well … I think we’ll run out of really deep topics eventually.

    Anyway, if you or anyone else wants to contact me so we don’t have to discuss non_AM things on her blog, I can be reached at DavidHayes56@yahoo.com

  • Sherann Johnson

    on September 4, 2008 at 7:06 pm

    hey allison:)
    To be honest I do what I want to do because…well it’s what I want to do:) I have a goal set for my life, and so far I haven’t let anyone take that away from me. This goal I have to impact people through movies is something I’ve just been committed to for so long, that it seems stupid to just give up on it or turn away from it. I’m to motivated now to stop. I have so much passion about it.

  • Bouroux

    on September 4, 2008 at 8:20 pm

    Hi Allison.
    I want to extend the intimacy.
    What is intimacy?
    According to Wikipedia:
    “Intimacy is both the ability and the choice to be close, loving, and vulnerable. Intimacy requires identity development. You have to know yourself and your inner self in order to share your self with another.”
    It is therefore open to others. To show its true personality, remove the masks. To show its vulnerability incites others to show theirs. Isolation is completed and solutions can appear at all.
    The curiosity has always been an important element in my life. Why and how are words that I use often. Curiosity is essential in my work.
    In life, we must take breaks in all that we do. Curiosity is not an exception. If our curiosity gives to us sadness because we are not ready to assume certain realities, moderate curiosity is essential.
    Why do you do what you do?
    To survive is the first thing that comes to mind.
    But survive for me this is not enough. Enjoying life, feel well sums up.
    I work to feed, house and maintain my family. To discover each day my strengths and weaknesses, to feel useful for the society. I do sport, because it is beneficial for my body and my mind. I live in family because it’s a precious thing for me. Each day, We must recognize the small things that make life so beautiful. A good meal, a film, good news, a new blog …
    I try to create activities that increase the pleasant moments.
    Hoping to become a better person and to be happier is a motivation.
    Allison, curiosity and discoveries about life that your blogs generate will have positive effects on us and on your career as an actress.
    Thanks to allow us to communicate with you.
    Bye
    Claude.

  • Jon W.

    on September 4, 2008 at 8:30 pm

    Allison I must say I am impressed with you. I don’t find many actors or actresses that care about their fans… at least not to your extent. So, thank you for all your hard work and actually caring.

    So the question is Why do I do what I do? It’s simple. Because I’m me. I do what I feel like when I feel like doing it and try to not let anyone influence my decisions. Not to say I don’t listen to good advise. 🙂 haha Seriously though. I work in a local government office and I do the job because it helps my community. Being a public servant has it’s ups and downs. The up side is part of my jobs helps the public school system and therefore helps kids. The down side is dealing with people who are ignorant about many things and don’t make the slightest attempt to understand.

  • Medina

    on September 4, 2008 at 11:33 pm

    Love
    Glad for be live
    Hope for best days in the future

  • Scott

    on September 5, 2008 at 12:22 pm

    Hey Dave:

    I personally don’t think one way or another about things related to Allison in blog postings, if things take off in a different direction. I guess I don’t take TOO much stock on it being someone’s blog. Then again, this kind of treats it like a forum. I’m not going to join that part of Allison’s site, I don’t feel comfortable enough to enter into that element yet.

    I’ll send you an E-mail so you know mine.

  • Lori Bennett

    on September 5, 2008 at 5:34 pm

    hey allison, the question u ended with “why do u do the things u do.” for me it’s simple. i’m currently earning another BA this time in criminal justice, b/c it’s something that interests me. i can’t pursue my passion for acting so i want to give back to society in some way. i like using my brain to think so school comes at times a way to do that. i get to learn from some of the best in the field-it’s great. i do the same with acting. i studied it a bit in high school (acting and directing class) loved it!! Whenever i watch a movie or tv i watch it to watch it first then i watch it again and again for the mannerism, facial expressions, and the pauses between lines. it’s my passion so i study it the best i can with the resources i have. i’m never giving up on that dream, but in the mean time i have to do something that can pay the bills now. so why do i do this? i’m playing with the cards i was dealt and doing my best to play them in the most effective way possible.

  • Mandy

    on September 5, 2008 at 6:47 pm

    I do what I do to affect the future. I want to find a student who doesn’t think they have anything to look forward to in life and prove them wrong and show them they have everything to live for and that life is what they make of it.

    I teach English in a school district with a high poverty rate–almost 50%. We are in central Illinois and get many transfer students from Chicago. And because of the high poverty rate, many of the students don’t believe that they can succeed and actually have a chance to fulfill their dreams.

    It’s not an easy job to change their outlook on life. I often come home in the evenings and wonder if I really have a chance to make a difference. I don’t just have the job of teaching them English–how to read, write, speak, and listen–but how to work hard, how to act in a professional situation, and how to set high expectations of themselves.

    I do what I do because even if I fail today, I know there’s always tomorrow. Another chance, another child, another future.

  • Brittany

    on September 5, 2008 at 7:31 pm

    Hey Allison, I have to say, you are really amazing and I support you to keep doing what your doing! I’m hapy there’s more people coming to the site. It seems like just yesterday there was only 50 comments and now it’s like over 200 for one post! I can’t keep up! Why do I do what I do? I do what I do because I love doing it. Don’t do something you don’t like because you’ll loose focus on what you really like! I’m seriously blown away by these posts! These questions just keep getting me closer to finding myself every comment! Bye for now, BrittXOxo

  • Phil Damico

    on September 6, 2008 at 12:22 am

    I do what I do,to find a sense of peace and balance in this universe. Sounds boring, but when I have down time I read, things like organic chemistry or books about hope and positivity. I like to travel and meet people, oh and I admit I am a spongebob fan! Why? I guess out of curiousity. Knowledge is power! And why not?

  • Brittny

    on September 12, 2008 at 1:00 am

    Why I come here and post sometimes… I guess it really has changed from what it was initially. I think it was the post with the lady who studied the brain and then got a brain injury. LOL! I love conversations. I love having conversations that can be silly one minute then spiritual the next then really deep then really vulnerable then just… blowing a raspberry! So. That’s why I come because this blog is like a delicious conversation with good friend. My brain gets exercise and so does my heart and spirit…

  • Brittny

    on September 12, 2008 at 1:04 am

    Oh whoops… as far as life goes… I’m still trying to figure out what to do. On one hand I want to… be recognized. To be… validated in a way. I want to have kudos and honors… but on the other hand I see that some of the most superficial things get honor, get kudos…

    I know I want to be connected to humanity. To every day people. I want to help where help is needed and not necessarily where… the most glamor or recognition will be…

    I have a lot of questions to answer. I know the answer is out there but it will be a long journey. I’m no where near a place where I can say… hmm here I am doing what I do… why?

    I’m still searching. I guess in a way I’m kind of fearful of committing… I really need to jump in.

  • Kristen Hebert

    on October 21, 2008 at 10:36 pm

    I want to live my life to the fullest and achieve self actualization through finding what is most important to me, which is being with those that I love, helping people overcome emotional obstacles, helping them think outside the box of society, making paintings, enjoying nature and sunlight, traveling, learning about new cultures, forms of art, perspectives, ideals, paradigms, reasons to live, and so on and on and on. This is what I do. I do it because it gives me a feeling of purpose and completeness. I love making people happy, and expressing myself. I love to seek first to understand, then to be understood, through whichever method it may be; talking, dancing, drawing, singing, whatever. And every day, I try and face the question, “why?” because if I don’t, I feel like I am living in a delusion of regularity and routine, and everything becomes senseless, like a drone that does what it does without actual reason.

  • steven p

    on January 18, 2009 at 9:45 pm

    this is the first time i’ve visited your site. i’ve been watching smallville since about season 4. i got caught up using dvd’s. and i don’t remember exactly when it was but i looked at my wife and i said, “you know, the girl who plays chloe is just a fantastic actress. best acting on the show.” of course as i came to appreciate your acting abilities something happened that seems to happen to all the things i like. they killed your character on a season finale. your character had just become a primary reason i watch the show and then they killed her. well thankfully that was just a plot twist.

  • Dick

    on January 28, 2009 at 12:55 am

    I would to call you Chloe~ I am a boy from China,and I’ve been visited you site for many times,but it’s the first time say something.I like Smallville very much,and i’ve been watching it since season 1.That’s a great show!My favorite character in the show is Clark,you and your cousin Lois in the show! I hope you can see my comment,and email me! I really like you and Smallville!
    ??????????~???~

  • Dick

    on January 28, 2009 at 12:59 am

    Hi! I want to say some Chinese,why there are just some ??????????~???~
    yesterday is the most important festival Spring festival, i’d like to wish you happy new year,and have good time!
    work hard play hard! I’m waiting for more Smallville~

  • Rick V

    on March 26, 2009 at 1:17 pm

    Why do I do what I do? I guess it all comes down to living up to the expectations I set for myself. Trying to be the best ME I can be. To ME, that means being a great husband, father (I have TWO boys), son, brother, co-worker…etc. By being GREAT, I want to live a life that contributes to the joy of others. If I can affect a person in such a way that allows them to experience even the smallest degree of happiness, then I’m content knowing I’m fullfilling some grand, universal plan. I hope my attitude and genuine desire to be NICE reaffirms people’s faith in our shared, inherent capacity for goodness and motivates others to treat each other with dignity, respect and a true sense of community. Thanks for being a kindred spirit Allison!